Conspiracy of a Scandalous Mind !

2007-12-13T03:21:00.000+11:00

Wordpress is killing me!! So i'm reverting back to blogspot !

So my cousin's getting married ! Or rather he's been married in the States for 3 years and now only gonna have the ceremonial dinner. Wait till neck also long alredi lei !!

Oklar at least my family and super extended family's also there so it was a pretty fun la besides the fact i was sick !!

Just a couple of photos. Its a wedding dinner right but haha no pics of the bridge and groom.

LOL

A day too early !

2007-06-04T16:38:00.001+10:00

So its 4th of June again !
24 hours' all i have to enjoy staying the age i'm currently in !!
Been a rather shabby year where nothing much really did happen so far. Staying single really doesn't make it any better . Haha

Best bit is i really spent loads of time with my mates from class. And the shit ass outings and funs we had . Haha
Went out with Angie and her gang for yet another round of shoppadalics delight. Everytime i'm out with her its always shopping and shopping and shopping. KNN . Like everything's free.

Argh . I miss those days back in Melbourne. 2 years just flew pass like that. Come to think of it everyone is everywhere now. No one really ever sticks at a place do they ! I guess soon i'll be off to another new episode of adventure but i'm sure everyone will still be there sticking around and chilling out together whenever we can. We'll see we'll see.

Its a quiet life. Simple life . The life i like and i'll get used to enjoying moments of it . Getting a year older means more limits and not being as havotic as i usually am. LOL. Rest assured its unlikely to happen. Haha

So its no more the lifestyle of cranky late nights with overcrowded clubs, parties and socialites. Rather sticking at home spending quality time with my computer. Somehow i wonder how did i manage to survive that days.

Argh. Tons of photos but too lazy to download Picasa. Soon maybe . Perhaps .

Back in Action !!

2007-05-31T02:49:00.000+10:00

FINALLY !!
After more than a year's break from blogging i've decided to get back on track and allow people to start scrutinizing my life again.

Or maybe i just need a refuge to sow my thoughts and feelings .
Either way i'm still gonna type . LOL

What's more to come !! PICTURES and more PICTURES !!

Ho Ho Holidays ....

2005-11-30T03:18:00.000+11:00

It's pouring cool icy teardrops ...
Echoed with sweet passionate whispers ...
I'm gladly stuck in this love struck adventure ...

Time really does fly during this break !!
Had a great holiday in Thailand ...
Although i was 100 % sick during the trip !!
It was a blast !!

Been a long long time since i worked !!
Not to mention the last time i hit the runway ...
Finally !!!
Feels so good being back on the runway since SFW !

And so NIKE it is ...
Fall 06 collection !!
The thing to look out for is their SHOES !!
AWE AWE AWESOME !!
Not to mention running shorts and singlets...

That's all for now !!
ZZZZzzzzzzz...

PHONE PHONE PHONE !!

2005-11-04T02:21:00.000+11:00

It's coming close to half-time ...
The score is 1 - 0 ...
After tomorrow i'm gonna make it 2 - 0 ...
Tht leaves 2 more papers to kill...

Exams exams exams .. Goodness i've never felt better. THis is really so relaxing compared to Chemical Engineering. Looking forward to end this good mysery and take my long awaited sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet break. Which means heaps of sun tanning and loads of doing something very productive called "nothing".

OMG OMG OMG !! I'm so into getting a 2 Megapixels phone now ! I really want one !! Or probably me just wanting to take more photos of EVERYTHING ! Tht definitely includes myself .. HAHA .. Even better, everyone's gonna be back from overseas ! More people to catch up with.

I should cut the crap ! Gonna get some sleep desperately !

ROCKY JC

2005-10-28T01:47:00.000+10:00

I'm 6 days and counting ..
Till me hands comes into contact with the exam papers...
Any feeling to describe ??
Feels so damn great !! HAHA ...

Nah... Just that i really hope to do the best i can for exams and it'll be breaktime for me. I still remember 1 year ago i was studying my ass off in Melbourne for my exam. It was also almost one year ago i met the first person and fell in love with. The past is the past but will be a memory remembered for life !

Anyhow, for more interesting topics, thanks for all your concerns and messages, i feel much better and recovered much from my sickness. But the weather is scary, it's so easy to crash with this sort of "happy go lucky rain" weather. Geez..Happy that my parents are finally back from the States. Was so worried over them and the freakin' terrorist thing going on now le.

But they will be leaving again le. My goodness, 2 days to rest from jetlag and flying to Korea. How to cope la seriously. Nevermind, i'm more envious than ever, cause i'm stuck here with exams while they are travelling. Even sadder, they didn't shop for me. ARGGHHH. Nevermind, i'll make the trip to Bangkok and HK myself soon.

HEHE... Record breaking day today, bought 3 perfumes !! But they were so freakin' cheap le!! My goodness... Here's the top 5 fragrances i rate highest on my list :-

1. ROCARBA by Hermes
Super masculine perfume that packs a super punch when it settles !!

2. CITY GLAM by Emporio Armani
Sleek, sheek shit !! Say it with me ..

3. BY by Dolce&Gabbana
My all time favourite ! This super eccentric mysterious fragrance.
All out attention grabber !

4. Ralph Lauren PURPLE LABLE
One hell of a catch if you can get it. Only in selected countries though.

5. Burberry BRIT
Sweet sweet baby !!

By the way, it's said that perfumes can speak someone's character !! Choose wisely therefore ! Another thing le, do visit the sequel to this blog on the side links!!!

CONSPIRACY OF A SCANDALOUS MIND 2 !! ------ >

Dying ?

2005-10-21T12:24:00.000+10:00

I swear yesterday was almost like the worst day of my life !
I did end up in the hospital ...
I did not sleep the whole night...
Thinking i was going to leave for good ...
No words could possibly describe the emotions that were pouring through my veins that period.

It almost felt like the closest to death ...
Felt like my time was up ...
Lost all sense of hope and life ...
Felt like my chest was being constricted by a big anaconda ..
Struggling to breathe in every breath ...

I was so disorientated i didn't know what i was doing the whole night. I remember going down to the park downstairs and walking aimlessly for at least 30 minutes at 4am in the morning.Thank goodness now i'm feeling much better alive and still kicking hard. I had never felt anything like this before, although i am still feeling it now, but it was never as bad as what i felt during that whole night. I realized i was really afraid of death and i was not ready to part with so many people and things i treasured in life.

If there is anything i learned from this experience, it's really to treasure my life given to me. Life's just such a 'fragile' word that breaks any time. So live it wisely and joyously. And don't sin so much too. Haha... In the end i ended up in Mt . E early in the morning. I really need to loosen up and start relaxing more. The doctor was all ready to give me as many MC's as i needed but i realized i do not have any classes at work for the entire 2 weeks. So sadly, no MC's.

On the good note, since officially being back on the working track again the pace had picked up and favourbly to my advantage. Yesterday i got another 2 phone calls regarding 2 new castings. Which bring the total to 4 castings in 3 weeks. Pretty good for now i guess. Hoping to get more secured shoots rather than castings though. Things would definitely pick up gradually i hope. I should go back to rest now although i should be back in school.

Treasure life, as life's a treasure bestowed upon you !

Catch me if u can !?

2005-10-16T15:20:00.000+10:00

Finally all assignments are done ...
Sigh of relief ...
For the moment that is ...
Until all hell breaks lose ..
When the killer exam comes ...

Kinda glad the assignments are over and tht's one less thing on my mind. Least now i'm just able to sit down and relax for 2 days before i bust my ass again on freakin' exam preparations . However, i did have a 'sinful trip' yesterday in town. I went for a little 'stress release' on my own and i'm rather 'satisfied' after that. Whatever your thinking it's just shopping ok.

Manage to buy singlets and shirts to add on to already a rather big collection. Sigh. Why am i always buying and buying but not wearing them so often le. Mummy and daddy left for States yesterday, will miss them and actually i'm kinda worried for them because of all the terrorist shit occuring le. So much for world peace !!!

But i did got an sms this morning ( finally ) telling me that they have arrived safely but one of their employees got held back for an hour for questioning le. Another sigh of relief !Anyhow, i'll be praying for their safety on this business trip. Everything will be fine !!

I've really got a few movies that i really wanna catch when it opens :-

1. Transporter 2 ( HOT HOT HOT )
2. Doom ( The Rock's rocks )
3. Harry Potter ( Self-explainatory)
4. Legend of Zorro ( Probably just continuation from childhood memories)

Hot upcoming news :-

I'll be getting married ... AS IF !!
HAHA .. nola .
Singapore Fashion week's coming up this month !!
Get out the that long kept sexy suit or drop-dead-gorgeuos dress and strut it with me !! Hehe ...
Till then.

Assigned Assignments ...

2005-10-10T20:43:00.000+10:00

Kinda joyous today ...
Why ??
Finally most assignments also 7788 already ...
That's less one worry on the back of my mind ...

Felt so good today ...
No more long draining group meetings ...
Just the sweet sound of my textbooks calling me ...
Shit... Exam's just really round the corner ...
2 weeks should i time myself...

Felt satisfied today cause i cleaned the house ...
Kinda anyway ...
I get this satisfaction when i see all the dirt being removed ...
Feels damn good ... I'm insane anyway ...

Somehow or rather i'm feeling lifeless ...
Been so long since i just went out and have fun ...
Quite a while back since i last breathed in a puff of ...
Some human's smoke in the club ...
Kinda happy in a way though without partying ...
But i don't know why le ...
Probably that's the life you get ...
With all the goddamn assignments !!

Hopefully as time passes ...
Things will be back the same ...
Smiles and laughter will continue filling the house ...
And also my simple plain life .

(Intro or retro) spective??

2005-09-28T01:57:00.000+10:00

WARNING, DEEP THOUGHTS AND WORDS BELOW. PROCEED ONLY WHEN READY.

Take your time to really slowly read it.

If you had to choose ...

Would you wanna be right or wrong ??
Most people would choose to be right...
I choose to be wrong sometimes...
That's where i am able to LEARN

Would you rather be loved or love ??
Most people would choose to be loved ...
I choose to love ...
Because i have CONTROL over loving someone

Would you rather be happy or sad ??
I hardly ever think anyone would choose to be sad ...
I will ...
Cause this is when i really THINK bout life ...
And learn to appreciate and be HAPPY !

21 years of my life passed. Yea, i'm really tht old already.
Yet how many times have i stopped the ' World'
To think about the 50 more years ahead ...
What do i wish ?
What do i dream of ?
What's the meaning of me being alive?
What do i wanna achieve ?
But most of all ...
Who am i in this population of 6 billion people on earth ??

I'm still taking time to find myself. I'll be lucky if i can do that before age 30,many people even at age 50 are still stuck finding themselves.

THINK THINK THINK !!
That's the only way you'll discover, people who never think will never achieve anything great.
How do u think Thomas Edison invented to many things.
I'm pretty sure when he was 'shitting' he's probably thinking more than us .
Haha...
Confucius, great thinker !!
Physics, if you never think and understand it , you'll never get it !
Be a great thinker !! And think positive !!

If you really wanna achieve great things in life ...
It really all starts with taking time to think !
Think bout what you want in life !
What to achieve in the next year or few years !!

When you finally figure out what you want in the next year or next few years you've found your GOAL. With this goal in your mind you'll find your FOCUS. By having this focus on the goal you'll never go astray. When you have your goals and focus, you'll find your MOTIVATION to drive you to achieve your goal.

I see so many people out there without a goal, without a goal there's no focus in life. Without focus it'll be extremely easy to get distracted and hence no aim in life and never achieving anything. That is why it's really so important to have a goal.

I remember when i told myself i wanted to be a model at the age of 17, i was 78 kg. Which is of cause fatter than your average kids la. I had that goal in mind to be a model, that drove me to lose 16 kg's in 3 months.
And for the next 3 years i worked hard to built up a good built even up to today still working so hard at the gym and watching my diet. Finally i'm happy to be where i am and achieving the goal i set for myself.

What's next ?? Or should i say what's my next goal ??
Probably getting married ... HAHAHA

Ok. After reading please do take time to THINK bout what i said . Even though it might sounds like rubbish still do THINK !!

*The word 'THINK' was mentioned 16 times ... Wow *

sigh

2005-09-20T01:37:00.000+10:00

Another sigh entry...

Today i feel so devastated le...
Didn't feel like talking at all ...
I'm suddenly sucked into another phobia ...
Fear of arguments again...

I'm so afraid to even talk again le. I feel so much happier being all by myself and not saying anything. Don't wanna be hurt anymore le. I feel like i'm the cause of troubles. Suddenly i feel so distant and weird being at home. I'm so worried also that my friend would be angry with me cause i did not stood by him.

Feel so trapped in a dilemma. All i can do is stay silent. I feel like shit le. WEnt out wondering aimlessly in the shopping mall just to escape. Have i really developed a phobia ? I really hate arguments ... Also hate being trapped in between 2 parties ending up feeling so so bad. I just so hope this phase would pass by quickly. Please don't argue with me anymore ya. I'll really break down soon.

I just want to be happy again. Sigh ...

How high is high ?

2005-08-29T02:09:00.000+10:00

Finally after trying to attempt my assignment i have my personal time to blog again at 2am in the morning.

The weekend was rather hectic. It was town day by day. It's routine life during the week VS the high context life during the weekend.Well, how we wanna live our life is really up to us to decide. It's just how WELL you can live it i guess.

Spent the whole saturday with my family. Mummy and Kor Kor both got new phones. I was offered by my mum any phone i wanted to get. But there was a stipulation, she would be taking my Nokia 6020. I was reluctant le. Held back for some reasons and so i didn't get a new phone. Guess sometimes money can't never buy and replace the value certain things.

Was really good we had such a good lunch together. I ate so so so much. Guess it defeats my whole week of work out. I'm really so looking forward to working. Even though it's not even coming to a month of my 2 months working break, i really need to fill up the time sometimes and as well my pocket. Hehe ...

I wanted to buy this A/X belt that i really like so much which cost just a little over 100 bucks. Went to the atm and realized i only had 98 dollars left. Kor wanted to pay for me first but in the end i thought ' Do i really need it ? Sigh, save the money le.. ' Didn't get it le. Still, have to pay up so much stuff's. Trying to keep up the good effort of not asking money from my parents. So i guess it's time to continue working.

But if i do start working and things get busy.. Will i be able to spent time with peoples who mean a lot to me. Time's passing so quickly. It's either you keep up or fall short.

Worn

2005-08-25T19:46:00.000+10:00

Tired perhaps ...
Physically or mentally ??

Living a routine life...
How routine is routine le ??

I'm quite shagged from working out. Wanna work soon so i can earn some money.
Feels so lifeless when you can't even do the things u wanna do.
Have fun ... Eat anything and everything...

Sigh. Been such a long time since i even ate the carrot cake in clementi. Everytime i rush there to buy it's closed. Sigh ...

Shag shag shag

If i had ...

2005-08-24T19:16:00.000+10:00

Been a while since i last blogged...
Many things happened during this period...

Should i say new life ??
Or perhaps just the same life in a different environment...
Interaction with new diff. people ...

Finally settling down back to my routine ...
Starting to enjoy studying life again ...
Things are so different compared to last time ...
Lifestyle , people , environment ...

Maybe with these changes in lifestyle and environment...
I would also change ...
Hopefully for the better ...

Well, least now not so much of wandering around in town spending money. Got a gym membership. Gonna put in more effort into working out and living a healthy lifestyle i guess. No more super late nights partying. Will sure miss it though. haha...

Hmm.. things get boring though. On a 2 months working break. No jobs, no income. Plenty of free time to spend by myself. Sometimes it's still hard to sleep at night. Adapting to this new environment.

So much time back on my hands i can really spent more time blogging away. I know that it's been quite a while. Hehe...

Gonna live my life to the fullest !

Homme Designato !!

2005-06-07T13:42:00.000+10:00

Feeling old ??
Feeling bored in your house ??
Feeling like hating your neighbours ??
Toilet not working well ??

Great !! Let's move out !! Hahaha ...

Ignore my bullshit anyway . Anyhow, i just got my hands on these new photos from daddy. I had a foot in designing this new house with them. Finally, i get to move to a new place !! Yay !! The feeling of a new home !

But it's rather too big le . 3 and 1/2 storeys with 14 rooms i think. Only me, kor kor, daddy and mummy though, no one to fill the space le. Well, least my dogs got a lot of space to move about. Haha ... just this excitement i guess for our family. Something new to look forward to ...

I shall work harder, maybe got free time go help lay bricks and cement too ...
Hehe...

Oh yea, i'm also created 2 new blogs ...
Let me know if you want the links ...

2005-06-07T13:40:00.000+10:00

New House 3

2005-06-07T13:39:00.001+10:00

New house 2

2005-06-07T13:39:00.000+10:00

New House 1

Club 21 !!

2005-06-05T23:30:00.000+10:00

Of average and legal age !!
Age to overrule my parents ( I wish )
Age to apply my own credit cards ( YES !! )
Age to love ...
And be loved ...

21 21 21 !! Sounds big aint it ? Everyone seems to be curious how i lasted on this day !!
Well well.... the stories go ..

Unfortunately, i celebrated today mostly all by myself. My parents are outstation !! Neither was my brother !! So i took the liberty of waking up early cause i slept at like 10 pm yesterday. Was so stoned i took the car out for a spin and eventually bought breakfast ...

Nope !! No friends to meet but thanks heaps for the wonderful smses and calls pouring in throughout the day !
Hmm... went for a tan , and amazingly i pulled off a 5 km run without any intervals !! Probably thanks to the fats motivating me !! Haha ...
Thankfully, my parents manage to rush back and arrived at 6pm. Dinner was amazing i would say !! Thanks mum and dad !! Love ya !! Thanks for paying the bill too ... HEHE !!

That was the end of my day !! So much for the big 21st huh !!
I'm just a simple guy you know !!
Simple guy with a complicated scandalous lifestyle !!

Oh yea...Happy 1st Birthday bloggy !!

The walk of 20 ....

2005-06-04T20:00:00.000+10:00

This would be my last moments i guess before i turn 21 tomorrow ....

I still remember, i created my blog on June 5th 2004. So tomorrow my blog would be 1 year old. Still remember the blog frenzy then, i wanted something to pen down my feelings, thoughts and life. Hoping someday i'll return after a few years and read thru it ....

Memories are for the past , live for the now !!

I really really wanted to blog today. Even as i left Singapore my heart was so so heavy. Never felt like that in such a long time. I was comtemplating .. but i still left.
I wish and i really wished i could stay and celebrate my birthday in Singapore. But i know on that day, i would miss someone badly. So i rather leave . How i long i could spend my birthday with that person.
But i rather it be a dream.....

Now, i'm all alone. My parents are not around to celebrate with me. My brother perhaps. 21st le, suppose to be big celebrations all night long. But i guess this would be the best time for me to reflect on my 21 years of life. The life given to me. The life i had and would soon to be ....

Still reflecting on my decision to return for good. Imagine i would have so make so many more major decisions from now onwards. And FINALLY i get to apply my own CREDIT CARDS !! YES !! But something this year that has changed my life...

I allowed love to creep in. Into my life after so many years...
And it changed me. Changed me to become someone better. Someone stronger.
Changed me to be a person ...
That would not only know how to be nice to people...
But learn to love people...
The fine line between being nice and being loving.

I had fun yesterday !! Though most of my friends are all back in Melbourne. I still really enjoyed and appreciate the friends back in Singapore. Tht's why i always creep back whenever i can. Didn't get high nor drunk anyway. Hehe ...

Sigh ... i feel so ...........

Lifestyle of the rich and famous !!

2005-05-27T01:27:00.000+10:00

Today was fun !!!

I went out with a local artiste and another model. Shall not name them ba . Anyway, does it matter ?? Cause they are my friends and that's all that matters ...

I underdressed today ! My mum never allows me to wear singlet out ! So i didn't !!
I just went out , met my friends and bought a full new set of clothes comprising a singlet , pants and sneakers . My goodness, first time walking around in public in a singlet !! Nevertheless, the attention received was overwhelming !! Love the entire look . Thanks Jo and Dan for picking the look for me . Haha !! The funny thing is , before i left i actually changed back to my old clothes rather than tht singlet.

Spent basically the whole day walking round town or should i say parading !! HAHA!!
Even manage to sit down and have a chat with Winnie Loo. She's really something man !!
Celebrity hair stylist and owner of A Cut Above !!
Becoming like the David Gan of Malaysia.

Well, i enjoyed today but it's taking it's toll now !! I feel so shagged !!

However, i got shit from mum ! And i am really sorry mum . Sorry le i overspent by so much. I should not waste money like that. Spent least 10 k in the last 3 months. Sigh !!
Stupid boy !! Useless !! Stop being a brat !!

I'm zoned out !! Cyaz .
Singapore tomorrow !!

PHoto mania !!

2005-05-20T19:10:00.000+10:00

Bloggy bloggy ...
I have abandoned you ...

Haha... sorry for the recent photo frenzy ..
Let's start !!
Work's pilling up slowly but gradually !! YAY !!
It's a good thing considering my parents and brother work so so hard ..
I need to make myself look more hardworking ...
Daddy left to Perth today..
I hope he'll have a good time
Haha..

Omg !! The past 3 days been running 2.4 k everyday ! It's crazy man but sigh. No choice bah... been working out so much just to get in shape for all the $$$$ to come.

Sun's been good to me !! Had my third tanning session and i swear !! For all the baking it's definitely worth it ! Confidence up up up !!

Sadly, not able to hang out with my friends back in Singapore !! Darn !!

Countdown : 5 days till my deardear gets back !!
Countdown : 15 days to my birthday !!

I'll be turning 21 real soon !! Hence hoping my 4 figure pay will come in soon !!
Just in time for ' SINGAPORE SALES '.....
So gonna be broke !
Ciaoz ..

2005-05-20T00:49:00.000+10:00

P-staR

2005-05-20T00:48:00.001+10:00

Alvi = LV

2005-05-20T00:48:00.000+10:00

Ericazzzzzzzz

2005-05-20T00:47:00.002+10:00

My roomate Sam

2005-05-20T00:47:00.001+10:00

Lofters

2005-05-20T00:47:00.000+10:00

1505

2005-05-20T00:43:00.000+10:00

Crazy/Beautiful

Home Sweet home !! SOb Sob !!

2005-05-06T14:50:00.000+10:00

Touchdown ...

I'm home le . It's a very mixed feeling. And also the most awkward one especially with my parents. Sigh.

05/05/05
The day i left Australia for good. A date i will always remember. A day i said good bye to many people. It's so sad man, u guys made me teared at te airport. Good thing i left in time before it overflowed. Thank God.
Another reason why i won't forget the day i left Australia. I got upgraded !!!! From Business to First Class !! OMG !! Never ever sat First Class before. I was SO swimming in the space which made me really feel like i was on a king's throne.
Thanks so much for the letters and also cards. Will keep it dear to me ! And not to mention the t-shirt !! You guys are the best la .

Been pouring the whole day. Wanted badly to get my tan but looks like i won't make it. Missing someone so badly le.
Oh !!! I got myself an Ipod Shuffle !! Hook me up !!

Always fight for the things you want and never say 'i give up'
JC

1 more day !!

2005-05-04T14:04:00.000+10:00

1 more day ....

Yesterday, was painful. I became emotionless. Why does the truth hurt so bad. Now i only wish to come back now. To a fresh new start. To a second chance to work things out again. I really really hope things would work out for the better.

Thank you, for your courage to tell me. You would know who you are. I respect and thank you for that.

Finally after more than 36 hours without sleep i got my 'rest' . Woke up feeling so much more alive today. Busy, busy busy.

I got my tan today, goodness it's good !! The tanlines makes me feel hot !!! Haha ...
Working out so much the past few weeks and everything seems well. I'm so prepared to come back now !! Fashion week, back to work and climb back to where i was before.

Hate the laptop, so hard to blog ...

Always fight for what you want and never say ' i give up ' !
JC

Kavana - Will you wait for me

2005-05-02T01:38:00.000+10:00

My 4th Farewell ...

If you guys ever get the chance. Get the song looping in my blog now. It's ' Will you wait for me ' by Kavana.

I've posted so many photos, it' almost like a photo frenzy ! Today, i had a surprise farewell by the ACCFers. Sigh , took so may photos for memories, but the true memories lies in my heart. Whenever i think of the things that we have done. It just emits a smile on my face and in my heart.

Every farewell which i attend my heart just sinks. It's painful ! Because i know i'm gonna leave and i'm really gonna miss this people. And the 'moments' we had together. Each group of people so individually different. All connected together.

I think the last farewell will be at the airport. I don't know if i can hold back my tears. I wish i can and i want to !! I don't want to cry in fromt of anyone !! 4 days and counting ...

Always fight for what you want and never say ' i give up' !
JC

2005-05-01T23:51:00.000+10:00

What more could you ask for ?!

2005-05-01T23:41:00.000+10:00

Mark my best friend in Melbourne!

2005-05-01T23:34:00.000+10:00

Pris&Mark @ Seoul House

2005-05-01T23:20:00.000+10:00

Group @ Seoul House

Arggghhhh !!!

2005-04-30T16:57:00.000+10:00

Goodness me,

I'm so drained and tired. Just finished my second farewell lunch and man i am so damn tired. I had less than 3 hours sleep. Let me see, clubbing in Next Blue till 3 plus in the morning . OMG !! It has been so long since i have been there, the crowd has left tht place and now it's so much more quiet. Not that it matters cause i had my friends and not forgetting !! ALCOHOL !! to heat things up and we had loads and loads of fun ! Happy 21st Jill !!

Shag man, talked for a while and packed a little and ended up in bed by 6.30am. Had to wake up at 10 am for oldz skoolz farewell lunch. I was so stoned !! And it wasn't even a hang over, probably lack of sleep. Today my 'wonder mattress' is going to leave me. Sigh, the 'place' where i spent half my time hibernating on in Australia is being sold away. Guess i'll just have to make it without a bed for now.

OK ! I'm so damn tired now, clubbing tonight again !! Double shag !! How would i even make it through !! So gonna kill my complexion !! Not to mention the 3rd model farewell tomorrow arvo ! Someone spare me some sleeping pills ?? Hahaha... tht's all for now, back to packing and more packing !!

2005-04-30T15:53:00.000+10:00

Ricky @ Next Blue

2005-04-30T15:47:00.000+10:00

Happy 21st Jill !!

THANK YOU

2005-04-27T04:50:00.000+10:00

I'm speechless ...
Stuck emotionless...
I'll just wait...
Wait for you to come back...

This soundtrack belongs to one to the movie shows, Infernal affairs. They play it whenever something sad or touching occurs.

One more week, i'm leaving. Guy's and girls, thanks for being a part of my life. Thanks for your phone calls and smses and to some i'm sorry you had to find out that way. Sorry i didn't make it an effort to tell you guys myself.
Sorry.

I thought i would be so happy leaving Melbourne, cause finally i can go where my heart is somewhere far away from Melbourne. However, as time passes, i realize no matter how much i try, i'll still never forget some of you guys here. People who have left me memories.

Memories that will live in me, deep down, trully .......... Thank you.

I will miss all of you. All of you.

Always fight for the things you want, and never say "i give up"
JC

Count me down !

2005-04-21T22:09:00.000+10:00

Alrighty,

It's officially 2 weeks before my sorry ass lands get's kicked out of Australia and gets checked backed home. Shit... i should have made that sound nicer.

But yes 2 weeks to get packed. Not only my physical baggages, but also my emotional attachments. Leaving a place i would say have never been this joyous and in a way sad. Sigh...... such a mix feeling. For some, i'm glad our paths did crossed but somehow or rather this is the end where for some of them i would have to say good bye forever.

I remember someone telling me this , " You've made such an impact and memory in many people's life ". Sigh, i really don't know how to carry on writting this.....

Life now .... Live now ...

2005-04-17T21:32:00.000+10:00

Any words to describe now would be :-

Bored
Broke
Busted

I'm stuck at home mostly doing nothing at all daily. It's probably just rotting at home as a daily routine. It's not that i don't wanna occupy myself with something interesting but just that Melbourne's this boring. But i should start packing or arranging my stuffs.Even my favourite pass time shopping's taken off the list. Which leads me back to the 2nd point.

Broke. Oh goodness, nothing can get worst than that. My expenditure has sky rocketed since i got back. Not even been anywhere close to shopping but just due to some reasons my money's all being drained up rather quickly. Wow, stressful le. The past 3 days i've been cooking meals. But i'm so fed up because i don't wanna keep cooking the same stuff. No choice le, if that's what would keep me saving, YES .... I'll do it willingly considering now i have not even a dollar cash to spend. Sigh.

Well, i'm being busted for the recent major decision. Won't wanna blog it out here cause i just can't be bothered but yes. Sad life le. My goodness, things just keep getting more interesting for my situation. Someone spare me a gun will ya ?????

Haha... Kidding nia. But only the gun part. For the rest, reality sinks in.

2005-04-17T15:55:00.000+10:00

What's up with D&G models man ...

2005-04-17T15:48:00.000+10:00

Glamorous lifestyle .

2005-04-17T15:46:00.000+10:00

Hook me up !!! This Gucci suit rocks .

FIGHTer

2005-04-13T19:36:00.000+10:00

My time's slowly running up ....
Waking up everyday after a late night ...
I feel like i'm a pawn in the chest game ...
Waiting for the next move ...
That could either make me or kill me ...
Finally ....

Another chapter of my life have closed ...
My friends that stood and crossed my path ...
I will trully miss you guys ...
For you have shaped me to become the person i am ..
Each individual one of you so special ...

Hands wide open ...
Embracing the new chapter that awaits me ..
My future, my life , my destiny ...
Big words that still scares me when i think of it ...
But i know in the end ...
I'll make it ...

New dreams and goals ...
New exciting environment ...
New faces and friends yet to meet ...
Something i'll be looking forward towards ...
Better get ready...
Coming your way ...

It's finally bye bye Melbourne ...
Welcome to the big new world ...........

2005-04-12T19:58:00.000+10:00

I love this photo

2005-04-12T19:54:00.000+10:00

Guess it for yourself !

2005-04-12T19:52:00.000+10:00

Frankfurt Airport

2005-04-12T18:34:00.000+10:00

Beautiful day

Sigh

2005-03-10T00:55:00.000+11:00

Left standing alone all by myself. If it's not possible for us to be together why are we still trying so hard to fight against the odds. Why is it that sometimes that there's this feeling in me to fight to the very end. And in the very end that i lose.....

Most of you who know me would know me as a very very strong character and personality. But eventually i'm still human and there's only that much i can do. I strive so hard to make everything come true but everything somehow just seems like it's not working.

But even still, as though it seems like a losing battle that things will not turn for the good where everything just seems so clouded and dark. I could only hang on by the thread. By believeing, believeing that there's still little hope. Even with that little hope i'll still pull myself up and fight, fight to survive, fight for what i have dreamed of....

2005

2005-03-02T02:08:00.000+11:00

Tonight I BLOG !!!

It has been ages since i last posted. It's good to be back blogging !! Not Melbourne. Well, 3 months swept past and i'm still laid back trying to accept the fact tht Uni's started. Sigh !! This year even more significant marked by the day June 5th where i officially am integrated into adulthood. 21 years old.

Looking back from the teenage life. Somehow or rather it still seemed more like a childlike life fully dependent on my parents until i left for Australia. I dare say, i've came a long way. From school to college into uni life. The transition was a rather swift change but part of the memories still remains. From a 78kg to 60 kg to 70 kg within the period of 3 years. Wow, looking back at it i still wonder how i did it and how amazing an experience it was. From a chubby boy to a slim model moving into an artist is still something i can hardly grasp and understand.

However, i'm happy and grateful for i have succeeded my dream and goal. To be the person i want to be. Most of all. To be HAPPY. But if i ask myself, am i trully happy? It's a question i'm still puzzled with and cannot answer. But for now it'll do.

2005. A new year with new motive and a new dream and goal to set and achieve. What am i going to set for this year and the years to come. The even bigger question !!! How many years am i going to take to achieve it. How much hard work. Still so many things to figure out !! But i know i'll definitely be able to do it.

Sigh ... back to Melbourne again. 4th year. I really miss someone. I just want to say i really miss you a lot. And finally also thank you for what we shared together. Thanks .... If u ask me now. I'm trully Happy.

Work = Dead Tired !

2004-12-03T15:32:00.000+11:00

YOU

2004-11-27T18:43:00.000+11:00

Alritey, second day marking into my officially holidays back homme.

And i have written a song thanks to all the musical instruments made available in the house as compared to Melbourne. However, this time i used the guitar instead of piano and wow... i sure love this song. Lively beat, simple words. And i'll include the lyrics.

YOU

Verse
Beautiful
Wonderful
Laying on the cross it was
You

Everyday
Longing for you
My heart crys out
And it was You

Pre-Chorus
That gave up Your Life
To redeem for my sins
Who could say my life ?
Only You
To light up my world
In the darkest hour
Guide me each day
I am new

Chorus
King Of majesty
I will run for you
Giver of life
Restorer of my soul

Your love and mercy
Are new each day
It was you, it was you.

End

Ok, yup. That was it. The lyrics. I am still unsure if i am going to work on a bridge for this song. But yea, just really love the melody. As for the rest of the day, try imagining this:-
Sitting beside a swimming pool baking under the sun to desperately restore the long lost tan. Haha... Oh yea.. forgot bout the fruit punch bit and the sexy chicks( as if i was in Hawaii).

But cool, resting well and enjoying every bit of it. Cyaz

Homme Finalle

2004-11-26T21:02:00.000+11:00

HELLO HELLO......

Just checked myself back into the hotseat of blogging. Yet again, a long break since my last update. Nevertheless, UPDATED.

Hmmm.... after months of torture and exam preparations. It's over, lying on my bed staring at the wall will be a luxury i could afford to indulge in for hours now if i wanted to with time travelling on my pace and by my side.

Yet again, countless era's of things have happened during this period of time. I fell !!! Don't ask fell for what. I just fell. The rest i leave it to your imagination. Finally back home in the comfort of love and care. I am able to refind, refocus, redefine my life again. A long deserved break from my endless life in Melbourne.

Then again, someone i will dearly love in Melbourne, my dear JJ will be deeply missed. But i know that she'll be in good hands. Hopefully she won't starve herself like the last time i wasn't around. Few people to publicly thank, Miss Angie Li, Mr. Victor Ng, Ms. Joan Lee. Appreciate it. Well, even during that short of post-exam syndromme, i still felt stressed as i was so caught up with so many things to do before i left. Even till the very very last minute.

I felt tht my life was bring drainned so badly in the last month. But finally, over. Now the next thing i would love to look forward to would be meeting my friends. Just spending time refining out friendship and bond. Time i hope will yet not be a struggle this time. I left Melbourne without being able to meet many many people. Work as well. That will be another issue that i really just don't know how to put it.

But then, who cares, just as long i'm not 10,000 miles away. I'm glad.

Hidden Agenda.

2004-11-04T01:08:00.000+11:00

Let's have a sneak preview into my life the past few days and the next few days to come !!!!!

Hmm.... it's just full on and i repeat again full on "hardcore" studyin' !! Now now, i think that does qualify me to be a nerd huh ?! However i always do try my best in desisting all nerdish comments as i do not look like one nor do i talk like one. Maybe i should give it a try one day ! Haha.

Past 3 days being stuck at home turned out to be pretty good actually.

1. I am actually "hardcore studying" or actually trying instead of shopping.
2. I actually eat healthy at home. But i munch loads of craps which in return makes me fat.
3. Lastly, my favourite. I spend less time in front of the mirror. Save hair gel as well !! Haha.

Hmm.... most people would describe me as being metrosexual but i guess i would not defy the fact that i do spend time grooming myself. But i guess i'm just brought up that way to be presentable to everyone. Plus i think most people won't want to see the horrible side of me. hhahaha.

A lot of money been spent on improving my physical image, but i guess when you are not that 'yandao' and have a job to satisfy which requires your best image you eventually succumb to the fact that you are left choiceless. Ha ! That should be good enough to console and also defend myself. Haha.

COUNTDOWN to home : 22 days
COUNTDOWN to exam : Less than 10 days. OMG (what am i doing blogging)
COUNTDOWN to mum's arrival: Speechless ! Neutral effect.

2004-11-03T12:23:00.000+11:00

JJ and me with lovely Kat in the background.

2004 Budget

2004-11-01T02:21:00.000+11:00

It's 3 am in the morning. Today i absolutely forgot about day light savings. Hence, late for church and for kids church as well. I felt like an hour of my time was just robbed from me and today's just like any other wasted weekend.

Swot vac begins today !! Which means exams are nearing.

Now, for an even frustrating issue. 2004 money or budget. It's just wrong the fact that reviewing my 2004 budget expenditure i realize that i absolutely managed to screw every single bit of it up. I overspent !! Many thanks to the amount of shopping and also expenditure. Omg, phonebills, and even CJ managed to drain quite a sum from me.

Just imagine the amount i need to spend on treats, training pads and many other stuff. It's an accumulation that somehow always go unnoticed.

Even with working this year which did pay fairly alright i still managed to spent it all directly after receiving my paycheck. Just imagine how much shopping i have done !! Even now my room still have unopenned shopping bags lying there for over 2 months with shoes, clothes, 'thongs', and the list goes on. Amazing JC !! What the hell is wrong with you !!!!!

Not to mention the 2 new suits added to the collection !! Omg... the more i actually give thoughts to it the list just keeps pouring on. And the worst of all, my new hair colour and style cost me quite a bomb itself.

Shit shit shit !!! Alright, better get in shape and go back and do some work and earn some money instead of staying home growing fat !! I managed to have a word with a Singaporean male model this week and i was thoroughly shocked that he recognized me from somewhere. When asked how ?? He answered that he had seen me from a website or magazine !!
Omg... scandolous to the max !! From a website ?? It's better not be some "18 onli'z website" so i spent an hour trying to go through every single modelling agency website in singapore, malaysia and australia.

And ............. guess what !!

I didn't find anything !!!! SHIT !
I guess i will hopefully be able to trace to a suitable answer soon !!

Alright, it's no more modelling work until i actually get back to home. Then at the moment i touch down again in Melbourne next year, it'll be an absolute new start with a new agency in a new building. Cool. Something for me to look forwards to. But hearing bout the few plans that will start next year i think it's gonna be quite another 'hactic' year.

Oh oh, today's halloween !!! yay !! So i took the liberty of buying candy's for the kids in kids church. Wow, this was actually my first time giving out candy's to the kids just like what i use to watch on american TV. But sadly, i wasn't the one receiving which officially means that i am OLDzz !!!!!! Plus, today we played dodgeball for games !! Goodness me i had to mend to so many kids tears ..... I guess it's 'rather' rough for them considering the ball's actually bigger than their head and when actual contact occurs .... It's tears and blood. But then again, it was bloody good fun ! HAHA....

Exams !!!!

Brekky !!

2004-10-29T13:24:00.000+10:00

Alright !!! 5 days stuck in the library maneged to absolutely drained every single bit of me left towards the end of the year. Let's go through my daily agenda's ....

It's study, studying and studying to the max !!

Trying to recapture the frames that just zapped by this year. It's been a crazy/ fast year. End of the year. The only thing i look forward to besides exams is going home !! Goodness me i dyed my hair plus highlighted it as well just yesterday. It's LOUD !!

This week has been absolutely amazing, i managed to screen out everything and tune into work. Even amazing is tht i was able to desist all forms of contact from the world. And finally, the weekend !!! A well deserved break from countless hours of lecture tortures and tutorial abuses.

Am also trying so hard to get into shape for work when i do get home however it has seriously proved ill. I feel so fat and weak. Not to mention the laziness that creeps in occasionally when i am in the gym. It's just amazing how your mind have the power to control and to be controlled.

Oh ya.... i think my mum's gonna be down during my exams to add to the 'flavor'. Mixed feeling on that but hopefully everythings good. Can't wait to go home !!! Don't have to do my own laundry, clean my house nor drive a car. Relax !!

Reunion !!

2004-10-01T21:36:00.000+10:00

Alright !! It's bout time i added some spice into my blog before it goes dry. I have somehow managed to survive through this 2 weeks of term holidays. And that is amazing. However, i realize that this entire 2 weeks i have basically been highly unproductive. Plus !!! I managed to screw up my eating habits, sleeping duties and studying obligations.

However, I do suppose this is a good break from my daily routine lifestyle. Well, where do I start ?? Let’s talk about CJ first, she manage to absolutely destroy my house within this period of 2 weeks and successfully forced me to lock her into her cage as a form of discipline. Won’t bother to elaborate because it’s just painful what she did to me and my house during ‘her’ holiday spirits. Hmm…

As for me, I basically spent most of my time catching up with friends and watching heaps and heaps of movies. Well, I also manage to whoop up a HUGE sum of shopping expenditure. And that’s only for clothes. One event that would be quite memorable was a kids church event called Fusion Olympics that absolutely drained every ounce of energy out of me !! But it was pretty GOOD. Full stop !!

Talk about working !! I am in a dilemma as to whether I should consider a job opportunity laid before me. This is rather frustrating and irritating as I am not capable of making a logical decision in consideration to pros and cons. BTW, this is not a modeling job. It’s more like a coffee shop worker (Australian style).

Today I manage to meet up with my old school friends and let me tell ya it’s GREAT !! Just the get together and not to mention a thorough bitching session ! Superb !! This weekend and the coming week it’s gonna be an absolute killer. More to come ….

Hi

2004-09-20T20:42:00.000+10:00

Bitching Session !!!

2004-09-19T03:04:00.000+10:00

No. 1
Superbly wonderfully annoyed and frustrated with a couple of people. Feel like killing a few people and burning Melbourne down. I hate it when people just 'dog' me for something else or just break my plans.

No.2
Screw it coz i can't go back home. Why !!!!!!!!!

No.3
What the hell am i gonna do with my life for this 2 weeks of absolute boring holidays ?? Suggestions ?? Probably just gonna work it off....

Consolation
On the bright side, at least me and my friends are planning upcoming programmes and activities. Today is extremely flattering.Well, it's because people are slowly starting to recognize me in the society. Went to a restaurant, and this waiter came up to me and this was how the conversation went :-

"Hey, aren't you the model from the fashion show ?"

After a second of comtemplation ...

"Mmmm... yea i think so."

Proceeded to sit down and have dinner with my friends.

Then after dinner and settling the bill. While i was about to leave, he came up to me again and thanked me and asked me for my name and of course being courteous i told him my name and he also introduced himself. Then funniest bit after that was he gave me a very big handshake and me and my friends after tht just left the restaurant and started laughing. I'm thinking to myself, haha... weird but well at least i am going somewhere with this modelling shit!!!

To be known and to be recognized, is that what i really want ?? Fame and people to know me ?? Well, tht's a question that i am still in the process of introspecting.But i am pretty darn sure it feels good. Coz just last week one of friends told me that someone wanted my autograph. To be very honest, i think i would enjoy it but after a while it would get in the way. To look back and say, " yes, been there and done it" so what ??

Sigh, probably tht's why i have this 2 weeks to really take time off to think bout my life and my goals in life. To refocus, reform,rebuilt, reset, realize.......

And if anyone has a thought or something just go ahead and leave it on the comment box...

PHOTORIA !!!

2004-09-14T01:08:00.000+10:00

Hey.... guys and girls. Newly editted and completed section.

PHOTORIA

Love every bit of it.

2004-09-02T16:45:00.000+10:00

It's too white to be true...

Menu...

2004-09-01T00:53:00.000+10:00

It has been quite a while since i disappeared from blog. So to everyone there who visits my blog, sorry for the second of laziness.Partially because i lost a little bit of interest and other things are occupying my time. My current status is extremely tired from a long day. Am gonna keep it short and sweet coz i am really tired.

Here is this most recent dinner menu :-

Entree :-
Trying to co-exist with my uni friends and other friends has proved to be quite a hard task. Starting a fresh with some friends after taking a seriously long break dating back to winter holidays till bout 1 week ago. I realised that i have been quite caught up with my life and work that i have left out some of my friends. I still remember i needed to meet someone for dinner 2 weeks back and i'm still dragging it. This is becoming really bad cause i am losing contact with my friends and church mates. I realised these when this friend of mine which have been consistantly been calling me at the wrong time sent me an sms telling me off !! And for that i really thank her! I need to find time !! I realised that most people either don't want or don't dare to tell me off. However, for people who actually yell at me in return gains my respect eg. Mark.
Many things have happened since the last update. My life for this semester seems to have just taken shape and it's looking pretty relaxing and not as stressful i hope.

Main Course :-
I have just attended a fashion show, my first australian wedding, 21st parties. First, the wedding was indeed awesome but a long and tiring day. Still shocked and dazzled trying to sucumb to the truth that these two people who were part of my normal life tied the knot.
Now, for the fashion show, it was a good presentation and a fun relaxing time. But it's bad coz i ended up at home at 4am and not being able to wake up for church the next day. Both the males and females were pretty good looking. This was the fashion show which i was suppose to train the models but i had to turn down the offer. However, the directors and i have reached an agreement on future modelling prospects. YAY !!!There are pros and cons on attending fashion shows and meeting clients. That is you get to expand your contacts but you lose valuable time and sometimes indirectly forsake things that are also a major part in my life.Enough said cause i am tired.
Attended a party today whereby i sat there all by myself not knowing anyone when i entered the bar and left with a handful of new found friends. Pretty cool and fun time i guess. Haven't had the chance to do this kinda things in a while coz i hardly am able to find time especially with new friends.
Just joined a new modelling agency, i switch agents as though i'm drinking coffee.. don't ask me why. But with this new agency i am required not to work as much and i am able to explore more towards the commercial side rather than just modelling. That means the camera's will be rolling and i'll get to learn how to smile more rather than acting cool infront of the camera for fashion shoots. Conclusion, modelling life is glamourous but sometimes it just absolutely drains my life !!

Dessert:-
2 weeks from now i will be having casting and photoshoots as well. THIS REALLY SUCKS !! Why ?? Maybe because i need to spent the two weeks now trying to look good !! How?? Well, it's by losing 3-4 kg's in 2 weeks by exercising and absolutely trying to be a nutcase at watching your diet. Imagine walking pass an ice cream shop or maybe just BK smelling the aroma of hamburgers and fries filling your tummy but not being able to physically consume it. Trust me !! It's a serious test of motivation.
I went to the gym... it felt good to get back to regime but there's this bit of me which still laze around just wanting to relax and not work myself up. For all you know, i just found out i needed to dye my hair black or shave my head !! Good one !! Just freakin' spent quite a sum coloring my hair and now they want me to spend more colouring it back. Totally unreasonable and ridiculous. But i guess it's job requirements. So probs i should just stop bitching and get working. However, shaving my head is quite interesting, i'll probably look like a monk from China who got stuck in the wrong country !! We'll see how things go....

As for photos... they'll be coming pretty soon. Till then my fellow bitchy partners and scandalous mates. Need sleep
!! ZZZZZzzzzzz

Broke!!!

2004-08-17T01:19:00.000+10:00

Now I understand the meaning of being broke. After enduring almost more than 1 week of being cashless and surviving merely on credit cards. I finally understand how people who have no money feel and suffer. I have to say, it is really not easy at all. The feeling of going out of the house with no money in your pocket and sitting there wondering how to obtain my next meal and how to buy stuff. Passing by shops whereby there are things that you want to buy but can’t afford it !! I now know that feeling !!

Let me begin the story. Bout 14 days ago, my bank account was frozen. WTF !!! Rushed into the bank and realized that my account was frozen due to the fact that someone had used my credit card and withdrawed an amount of $2500 AUD. Terrified and petrified I immediately had the credit card services to verify the validity of the transaction and it was establish that the transaction came from half-way round the world !! Great Brittan !!! Didn’t know I was ever in there!! This time even more terrified and petrified I had them cancel my card immediately. Filed a fraud report and had to report it to the police as well. SO much of paperwork and investigations. Best thing is I couldn’t take money out from fixed deposit in another bank and other bank accounts were running low!! In other words, I am officially BROKE !!

Great !!! Because of that incident they froze all funds in my account so that no further transactions could ensue. That was then I realize that I am officially a poor boy !!! Had to survive on people’s food remnants and search the garbage bins for food !!! HAHA.. just kidding. Well, I had to rely on daddy’s credit cards but I did not want to spent too much so I tried to save as much as possible. Only used it to buy groceries around $50 AUD through this entire event !! This incident just makes the word LONG-SUFFERING seem so true. So for that ….

Everyday I sit there thinking how to get money ?? NO !! I will not ask from my parents as I want to stand on my own feet !! I thought to myself, maybe I should sell some of my clothes cause they should worth quite a bit but it was not as simple as what I hoped for. Then, I turned to my agent to ask for my pay for the last job which the agency still owes me and they were not able to pay me till the end of the month !! DIE LA !! Why did I turn down that modeling job!! Why !! Could have earned at least 2 grand but why God put me in such a situation !! For this entire time I had to survive on supplies and groceries which I bought, tough life !!

The best is yet to come !! I checked my account on Friday which was around 10 days after the first incident… WOW !! Another 8 transactions which totaled up to $400 AUD !! With haste I immediately rushed into the bank and scolded as many people as I could find !! Actually only 2 person !! Irrational behaviour !! Regret it !! How could this have happened especially when I have cancelled the card and the account was frozen !! WTF !! SO much for that St. George bank !! I did inform my parents about it but this time I did not want them to send me any money because I want to handle this situation by myself. Superbly terrified and petrified !!

Finally, today !! The bank called me in to verify some details and finally agreed to refund the total fraud transaction amount back into my account !! Finally!! No more war with money issues!! My emotions !! HAPPY !! EXCITED !!

14 days !! That’s how long I endured and it was not fun !!If there’s anything I’ve learned is that so many people are actually in my situation with their bank accounts running almost low!! They have so much more worries than me for their entire life whereas mine is only temporary. How could I ever imagine being in their shoes where I am sheltered by my parents. So I have decided from now on I will only spend my money as wisely as I can!! Appreciate every single dollar and cents that I own !! Lesson learned…..

Drenched !!

2004-08-15T01:03:00.000+10:00

Today's a really long and dragy day !! Melbourne's weathers screwed up man. Few days of sunshine and one full day of rain. For a Saturday, it's been a long day. Went out at 10am and got back at 11.30pm to sleep. Basically, just went out to meet a client in the morning and then went hunting for a present. Today one of my friend's graduating, so i took the liberty of buying a 1 metre chocolate bar with assorted chocolates for him. It's really cool.

Freakin' went out dry and comfortable and came back home in the afternoon drenched. Never ever liked Melbourne's weather anyway. Had to come home and change because all my clothes were wet and I looked like an idiot. Got changed into a classic black suit because i really didn't want to dress up for the occasion. Now it was the suits turn to get soaked. Freak !!!!!! The ceremony was wonderfully amazingly BORING!! Man, don’t think I’m gonna rock up for my graduation !! Get drained so badly it just aint funny anymore.

The best part bout being an international student is you have the opportunity to get ripped off by the Australian government. Freakin’ pay like AUD $100,000 for a piece of paper Signed, Sealed Delivered by an old “wise” lady a.k.a. Chancellor. Hmm… i would say good investment daddy. Well done !! Well, will be at least 2 years before I’m rocking up that road I guess. However, however… the best is yet to come. The after Grad refreshment. The foods pretty good. At least good enough to make my “Daddy’s investment” feel better.

However, thinking bout it.. how often do we actually put what we have learned into application ?? Most of the time we just learn it and pretty much forget it after the exams. But i guess it's the process of learning that we learn and experience. Not so much on the facts and text books. More to come.

After tht, basically it was just going out with friends playing games and trying to have “intellectual” conversations. Tired now….

ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………..

Oh... almost forgot, i wanna direct everyone who is reading this blog to the previous posting. Especially the comments bit. I hope you al will take time to read it.

2004-08-09T11:40:00.000+10:00

Diners !

2004-08-09T11:39:00.001+10:00

Bedrooms !

2004-08-09T11:39:00.000+10:00

Deck

2004-08-09T11:38:00.002+10:00

Murray river !

2004-08-09T11:38:00.001+10:00

Deck Spa !!

2004-08-09T11:38:00.000+10:00

Our Boat !

2004-08-09T11:37:00.001+10:00

Kitchen

2004-08-09T11:37:00.000+10:00

Check out our alcohols in the fridge and by the side bench !!

2004-08-08T23:15:00.000+10:00

Almost there !!

2004-08-08T23:14:00.000+10:00

Check out the food mate !!

2004-08-08T23:11:00.000+10:00

Wow... Derek's pretty much gone !

Last day !!

2004-08-08T23:04:00.000+10:00

Third day coverage !! Let me see, everyone's pretty much banged out !! Tired !! Acumulation and built up of alcohol. But we still had a last burst of energy to overpower the Buck into the river !! And it's back home to everyday life !!! Good worth of 3 days fun !! Unforgettable experience..... Definitely!

2004-08-08T23:00:00.000+10:00

Booze up !!

2004-08-08T22:59:00.001+10:00

COolios ...

2004-08-08T22:59:00.000+10:00

Being bullied by 3 ABC's.. sigh sigh

2004-08-08T22:54:00.000+10:00

Unbelievable... believe it !!

What have i done !!!!!!!!!!!

2004-08-02T02:11:00.000+10:00

Ok..today i made quite a big decision that would be quite impactful towards my modelling career. I decided to turn down the offer for 2004 Shanghai Fashion Week.

Thank God for really speaking. Today Chris was just giving a short testimonial during service and it really did identify with what i felt. Whether to accept or to decline the job offer. This was really one BIG oppurcunity. It's one of the few rather big fashion events. Howver, i realised that nothing can be more important than my friends.

I don't think i will be able to live with the fact that i don't attend my friend's bachelor part and marriage. So, i decided to let it go. It's not about the money, the fame or the experience. I think what matters most in life is dealing with your heart. And i am glad i made the right decision !! What could really matter more than our relationships and friendships where our lives are built on !! Good work JC !! =)

Ooo... my cousin's coming !!! Really excited to meet her, she'll be here by Thursday !! So, looks like it will be one hell of a week !!

So,better start gearing up !! All set for this weekend !!!

Thank God !!

WTF !!

2004-08-01T02:41:00.000+10:00

I don't know what's wrong !!! Can't freakin upload any photos at all !!

2004-08-01T02:38:00.000+10:00

Killer 2 button white suit ...

2004 Shanghai Fashion Week!!!!

2004-07-31T02:08:00.000+10:00

Yay !! Finally, fashion week. Anyway, this events really really cool. Didn't want to participate in it because i don't really have much time and plus i went back to Malaysia during the break. But will be helping out, still in negotiations with the company director as to my role as being a model trainer or something else. Might have to go to China, not sure yet !! Excitement !!

Anyway, this time can't get any free tickets. It's on the 28th of August in Sofitel Hotel. Tickets are available and start from AUD 48 - 68. Only 300 tickets available. SO anyone interested let me know.

Well, more updatez on this when things get a little closer. Don't wanna spill too much !!!

JAP !!!

2004-07-30T03:32:00.000+10:00

Okiez... i have to admit. I have got this thing for Japs. Jap cars, jap names, movies... everything.

Gosh, i have watched the last samurai like freakin 10 times and yet i'm still going on strong. What's wrong wif me !!!! Hmm.. besides the fact that Jap chicks are preetty hot. Every Jap chick seems to have dyed hair !! Wow, honkie chicks with a good tan and skinny.. good height as well. Super duper hot.....

Wow... didn't know asian female models could be so freakin good lookin'. However, a little too old. = P. Well well, drool drool. Tan, i need my daily source of tan. Freakin winter, not only superbly depressing but i freakin' look like a fresh slaugthered chicken with it's feathers removed.

Dreading everyday in Melb, dying by the minute.

Me againz !!

2004-07-30T01:35:00.000+10:00

Hmm... today CJ got a bath. Once every week. And i bought her a new jumper again. This time blue in color. So , therefore you will seeing quite a row of new photos of me and CJ. She smells good... thank God for creating dog shampoo....

MMM.... nothing else to add.

2004-07-30T01:30:00.000+10:00

Hmm.. one for the muscles...

2004-07-29T21:07:00.000+10:00

ME & CJ

2004-07-29T21:06:00.001+10:00

CJ on my lap...

2004-07-29T21:06:00.000+10:00

THE KISS !!

2004-07-29T21:05:00.000+10:00

CJCJCJCJCJCJ

Ear Rings !!!

2004-07-29T09:52:00.000+10:00

I am so freakin' tempted to put a diamond earring on me left year. ALmost ... almost did it but i just had to think bout it again. Really gonna do it soon.. However, dun think will be approved by loads of people. Eg. parents, relatives, even some friends.....

Hmm... Wanna dye my hair as well....

THt will be interesting.. the whole complete look......

CIaoz

Hmm....

2004-07-29T09:50:00.000+10:00

I realize one thing .....

There's more to life than to be really really ridiculously good lookin'.... hahaha....

quote & unquote " Zoolander"......

Interesting!!

2004-07-28T08:22:00.000+10:00

I woke up at 6.54am today!!!! Superbly undeniably impressive. THanks to sleepin' early. So i guess i'll have quite a long day ahead.

Commenting!!

2004-07-28T08:10:00.000+10:00

OK... i have adjusted the settings so that anyone can comment on anything you see. Don't mind any comments just as long as it's in english and i can freakin understand it. So... comment your way...

2004-07-27T21:43:00.000+10:00

I actually smiled !!!

Notice!!

2004-07-26T04:22:00.000+10:00

Well, i notice one thing... In all my photos i don't smile at all. Really haven't got a clue as to why i don't smile in ront of the camera. Maybe it's a model thing. Or trying to keep it cool. No idea !! Well, well ,well ... It is a good thing that since i got back my hactic lifestyle have not started yet. Just enjoy my relaxation. Haven't been replying many calls as well. Sorry, if you're one of them and you are reading this, it's not that i am avoiding you or anything. Don't take it personally. Ohh... there are also a photos of CJ just a while back.

Church was pretty crazy today. The kids were mad !! If i had my way... i would handcuff all of them to their chair. Save me my troubles and energy. Went out for lunch with friends have church !! Amazing !! coz the last time i could recall was probably bout 4-5 months back. Wei Syn and Di's wedding's coming up. Pretty interesting and i guess maybe something to look forward to besides daily routine of work and work and more work.

Well, since i got back i decided to implement the new look !No more Honkee wannabe ! Would like to call it the smart intelectual look. For those who've seen it. You know ... but for those who are yet to witness. Here's the preview... a nice bright colourned collared top (pink/bright green/light blue .....) with wool semi-casual pants (grey or white as seen in the previous photo ) with a new hair style topped up with a pair of silver bright glasses. Can be witnessed in the previous few photos. Thank God... hopefully i won't get bored of it too soon.

Since i got back i am yet to on the TV. Have not touched it yet. Basically everything's the same. Heard tht my agency is planning a fashion show in the snow !! WTH ??!! Clueless.. all i know is i will be meeting him sometime this week for reviews. Tht's all for now.