The walk of 20 ....

This would be my last moments i guess before i turn 21 tomorrow ....


I still remember, i created my blog on June 5th 2004. So tomorrow my blog would be 1 year old. Still remember the blog frenzy then, i wanted something to pen down my feelings, thoughts and life. Hoping someday i'll return after a few years and read thru it ....

Memories are for the past , live for the now !!

I really really wanted to blog today. Even as i left Singapore my heart was so so heavy. Never felt like that in such a long time. I was comtemplating .. but i still left.
I wish and i really wished i could stay and celebrate my birthday in Singapore. But i know on that day, i would miss someone badly. So i rather leave . How i long i could spend my birthday with that person.
But i rather it be a dream.....

Now, i'm all alone. My parents are not around to celebrate with me. My brother perhaps. 21st le, suppose to be big celebrations all night long. But i guess this would be the best time for me to reflect on my 21 years of life. The life given to me. The life i had and would soon to be ....

Still reflecting on my decision to return for good. Imagine i would have so make so many more major decisions from now onwards. And FINALLY i get to apply my own CREDIT CARDS !! YES !! But something this year that has changed my life...

I allowed love to creep in. Into my life after so many years...
And it changed me. Changed me to become someone better. Someone stronger.
Changed me to be a person ...
That would not only know how to be nice to people...
But learn to love people...
The fine line between being nice and being loving.

I had fun yesterday !! Though most of my friends are all back in Melbourne. I still really enjoyed and appreciate the friends back in Singapore. Tht's why i always creep back whenever i can. Didn't get high nor drunk anyway. Hehe ...

Sigh ... i feel so ...........