Friday, December 03, 2004
Saturday, November 27, 2004
YOU
Alritey, second day marking into my officially holidays back homme.
And i have written a song thanks to all the musical instruments made available in the house as compared to Melbourne. However, this time i used the guitar instead of piano and wow... i sure love this song. Lively beat, simple words. And i'll include the lyrics.
YOU
Verse
Beautiful
Wonderful
Laying on the cross it was
You
Everyday
Longing for you
My heart crys out
And it was You
Pre-Chorus
That gave up Your Life
To redeem for my sins
Who could say my life ?
Only You
To light up my world
In the darkest hour
Guide me each day
I am new
Chorus
King Of majesty
I will run for you
Giver of life
Restorer of my soul
Your love and mercy
Are new each day
It was you, it was you.
End
Ok, yup. That was it. The lyrics. I am still unsure if i am going to work on a bridge for this song. But yea, just really love the melody. As for the rest of the day, try imagining this:-
Sitting beside a swimming pool baking under the sun to desperately restore the long lost tan. Haha... Oh yea.. forgot bout the fruit punch bit and the sexy chicks( as if i was in Hawaii).
But cool, resting well and enjoying every bit of it. Cyaz
And i have written a song thanks to all the musical instruments made available in the house as compared to Melbourne. However, this time i used the guitar instead of piano and wow... i sure love this song. Lively beat, simple words. And i'll include the lyrics.
YOU
Verse
Beautiful
Wonderful
Laying on the cross it was
You
Everyday
Longing for you
My heart crys out
And it was You
Pre-Chorus
That gave up Your Life
To redeem for my sins
Who could say my life ?
Only You
To light up my world
In the darkest hour
Guide me each day
I am new
Chorus
King Of majesty
I will run for you
Giver of life
Restorer of my soul
Your love and mercy
Are new each day
It was you, it was you.
End
Ok, yup. That was it. The lyrics. I am still unsure if i am going to work on a bridge for this song. But yea, just really love the melody. As for the rest of the day, try imagining this:-
Sitting beside a swimming pool baking under the sun to desperately restore the long lost tan. Haha... Oh yea.. forgot bout the fruit punch bit and the sexy chicks( as if i was in Hawaii).
But cool, resting well and enjoying every bit of it. Cyaz
Friday, November 26, 2004
Homme Finalle
HELLO HELLO......
Just checked myself back into the hotseat of blogging. Yet again, a long break since my last update. Nevertheless, UPDATED.
Hmmm.... after months of torture and exam preparations. It's over, lying on my bed staring at the wall will be a luxury i could afford to indulge in for hours now if i wanted to with time travelling on my pace and by my side.
Yet again, countless era's of things have happened during this period of time. I fell !!! Don't ask fell for what. I just fell. The rest i leave it to your imagination. Finally back home in the comfort of love and care. I am able to refind, refocus, redefine my life again. A long deserved break from my endless life in Melbourne.
Then again, someone i will dearly love in Melbourne, my dear JJ will be deeply missed. But i know that she'll be in good hands. Hopefully she won't starve herself like the last time i wasn't around. Few people to publicly thank, Miss Angie Li, Mr. Victor Ng, Ms. Joan Lee. Appreciate it. Well, even during that short of post-exam syndromme, i still felt stressed as i was so caught up with so many things to do before i left. Even till the very very last minute.
I felt tht my life was bring drainned so badly in the last month. But finally, over. Now the next thing i would love to look forward to would be meeting my friends. Just spending time refining out friendship and bond. Time i hope will yet not be a struggle this time. I left Melbourne without being able to meet many many people. Work as well. That will be another issue that i really just don't know how to put it.
But then, who cares, just as long i'm not 10,000 miles away. I'm glad.
Just checked myself back into the hotseat of blogging. Yet again, a long break since my last update. Nevertheless, UPDATED.
Hmmm.... after months of torture and exam preparations. It's over, lying on my bed staring at the wall will be a luxury i could afford to indulge in for hours now if i wanted to with time travelling on my pace and by my side.
Yet again, countless era's of things have happened during this period of time. I fell !!! Don't ask fell for what. I just fell. The rest i leave it to your imagination. Finally back home in the comfort of love and care. I am able to refind, refocus, redefine my life again. A long deserved break from my endless life in Melbourne.
Then again, someone i will dearly love in Melbourne, my dear JJ will be deeply missed. But i know that she'll be in good hands. Hopefully she won't starve herself like the last time i wasn't around. Few people to publicly thank, Miss Angie Li, Mr. Victor Ng, Ms. Joan Lee. Appreciate it. Well, even during that short of post-exam syndromme, i still felt stressed as i was so caught up with so many things to do before i left. Even till the very very last minute.
I felt tht my life was bring drainned so badly in the last month. But finally, over. Now the next thing i would love to look forward to would be meeting my friends. Just spending time refining out friendship and bond. Time i hope will yet not be a struggle this time. I left Melbourne without being able to meet many many people. Work as well. That will be another issue that i really just don't know how to put it.
But then, who cares, just as long i'm not 10,000 miles away. I'm glad.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Hidden Agenda.
Let's have a sneak preview into my life the past few days and the next few days to come !!!!!
Hmm.... it's just full on and i repeat again full on "hardcore" studyin' !! Now now, i think that does qualify me to be a nerd huh ?! However i always do try my best in desisting all nerdish comments as i do not look like one nor do i talk like one. Maybe i should give it a try one day ! Haha.
Past 3 days being stuck at home turned out to be pretty good actually.
1. I am actually "hardcore studying" or actually trying instead of shopping.
2. I actually eat healthy at home. But i munch loads of craps which in return makes me fat.
3. Lastly, my favourite. I spend less time in front of the mirror. Save hair gel as well !! Haha.
Hmm.... most people would describe me as being metrosexual but i guess i would not defy the fact that i do spend time grooming myself. But i guess i'm just brought up that way to be presentable to everyone. Plus i think most people won't want to see the horrible side of me. hhahaha.
A lot of money been spent on improving my physical image, but i guess when you are not that 'yandao' and have a job to satisfy which requires your best image you eventually succumb to the fact that you are left choiceless. Ha ! That should be good enough to console and also defend myself. Haha.
COUNTDOWN to home : 22 days
COUNTDOWN to exam : Less than 10 days. OMG (what am i doing blogging)
COUNTDOWN to mum's arrival: Speechless ! Neutral effect.
Hmm.... it's just full on and i repeat again full on "hardcore" studyin' !! Now now, i think that does qualify me to be a nerd huh ?! However i always do try my best in desisting all nerdish comments as i do not look like one nor do i talk like one. Maybe i should give it a try one day ! Haha.
Past 3 days being stuck at home turned out to be pretty good actually.
1. I am actually "hardcore studying" or actually trying instead of shopping.
2. I actually eat healthy at home. But i munch loads of craps which in return makes me fat.
3. Lastly, my favourite. I spend less time in front of the mirror. Save hair gel as well !! Haha.
Hmm.... most people would describe me as being metrosexual but i guess i would not defy the fact that i do spend time grooming myself. But i guess i'm just brought up that way to be presentable to everyone. Plus i think most people won't want to see the horrible side of me. hhahaha.
A lot of money been spent on improving my physical image, but i guess when you are not that 'yandao' and have a job to satisfy which requires your best image you eventually succumb to the fact that you are left choiceless. Ha ! That should be good enough to console and also defend myself. Haha.
COUNTDOWN to home : 22 days
COUNTDOWN to exam : Less than 10 days. OMG (what am i doing blogging)
COUNTDOWN to mum's arrival: Speechless ! Neutral effect.
Monday, November 01, 2004
2004 Budget
It's 3 am in the morning. Today i absolutely forgot about day light savings. Hence, late for church and for kids church as well. I felt like an hour of my time was just robbed from me and today's just like any other wasted weekend.
Swot vac begins today !! Which means exams are nearing.
Now, for an even frustrating issue. 2004 money or budget. It's just wrong the fact that reviewing my 2004 budget expenditure i realize that i absolutely managed to screw every single bit of it up. I overspent !! Many thanks to the amount of shopping and also expenditure. Omg, phonebills, and even CJ managed to drain quite a sum from me.
Just imagine the amount i need to spend on treats, training pads and many other stuff. It's an accumulation that somehow always go unnoticed.
Even with working this year which did pay fairly alright i still managed to spent it all directly after receiving my paycheck. Just imagine how much shopping i have done !! Even now my room still have unopenned shopping bags lying there for over 2 months with shoes, clothes, 'thongs', and the list goes on. Amazing JC !! What the hell is wrong with you !!!!!
Not to mention the 2 new suits added to the collection !! Omg... the more i actually give thoughts to it the list just keeps pouring on. And the worst of all, my new hair colour and style cost me quite a bomb itself.
Shit shit shit !!! Alright, better get in shape and go back and do some work and earn some money instead of staying home growing fat !! I managed to have a word with a Singaporean male model this week and i was thoroughly shocked that he recognized me from somewhere. When asked how ?? He answered that he had seen me from a website or magazine !!
Omg... scandolous to the max !! From a website ?? It's better not be some "18 onli'z website" so i spent an hour trying to go through every single modelling agency website in singapore, malaysia and australia.
And ............. guess what !!
I didn't find anything !!!! SHIT !
I guess i will hopefully be able to trace to a suitable answer soon !!
Alright, it's no more modelling work until i actually get back to home. Then at the moment i touch down again in Melbourne next year, it'll be an absolute new start with a new agency in a new building. Cool. Something for me to look forwards to. But hearing bout the few plans that will start next year i think it's gonna be quite another 'hactic' year.
Oh oh, today's halloween !!! yay !! So i took the liberty of buying candy's for the kids in kids church. Wow, this was actually my first time giving out candy's to the kids just like what i use to watch on american TV. But sadly, i wasn't the one receiving which officially means that i am OLDzz !!!!!! Plus, today we played dodgeball for games !! Goodness me i had to mend to so many kids tears ..... I guess it's 'rather' rough for them considering the ball's actually bigger than their head and when actual contact occurs .... It's tears and blood. But then again, it was bloody good fun ! HAHA....
Exams !!!!
Swot vac begins today !! Which means exams are nearing.
Now, for an even frustrating issue. 2004 money or budget. It's just wrong the fact that reviewing my 2004 budget expenditure i realize that i absolutely managed to screw every single bit of it up. I overspent !! Many thanks to the amount of shopping and also expenditure. Omg, phonebills, and even CJ managed to drain quite a sum from me.
Just imagine the amount i need to spend on treats, training pads and many other stuff. It's an accumulation that somehow always go unnoticed.
Even with working this year which did pay fairly alright i still managed to spent it all directly after receiving my paycheck. Just imagine how much shopping i have done !! Even now my room still have unopenned shopping bags lying there for over 2 months with shoes, clothes, 'thongs', and the list goes on. Amazing JC !! What the hell is wrong with you !!!!!
Not to mention the 2 new suits added to the collection !! Omg... the more i actually give thoughts to it the list just keeps pouring on. And the worst of all, my new hair colour and style cost me quite a bomb itself.
Shit shit shit !!! Alright, better get in shape and go back and do some work and earn some money instead of staying home growing fat !! I managed to have a word with a Singaporean male model this week and i was thoroughly shocked that he recognized me from somewhere. When asked how ?? He answered that he had seen me from a website or magazine !!
Omg... scandolous to the max !! From a website ?? It's better not be some "18 onli'z website" so i spent an hour trying to go through every single modelling agency website in singapore, malaysia and australia.
And ............. guess what !!
I didn't find anything !!!! SHIT !
I guess i will hopefully be able to trace to a suitable answer soon !!
Alright, it's no more modelling work until i actually get back to home. Then at the moment i touch down again in Melbourne next year, it'll be an absolute new start with a new agency in a new building. Cool. Something for me to look forwards to. But hearing bout the few plans that will start next year i think it's gonna be quite another 'hactic' year.
Oh oh, today's halloween !!! yay !! So i took the liberty of buying candy's for the kids in kids church. Wow, this was actually my first time giving out candy's to the kids just like what i use to watch on american TV. But sadly, i wasn't the one receiving which officially means that i am OLDzz !!!!!! Plus, today we played dodgeball for games !! Goodness me i had to mend to so many kids tears ..... I guess it's 'rather' rough for them considering the ball's actually bigger than their head and when actual contact occurs .... It's tears and blood. But then again, it was bloody good fun ! HAHA....
Exams !!!!
Friday, October 29, 2004
Brekky !!
Alright !!! 5 days stuck in the library maneged to absolutely drained every single bit of me left towards the end of the year. Let's go through my daily agenda's ....
It's study, studying and studying to the max !!
Trying to recapture the frames that just zapped by this year. It's been a crazy/ fast year. End of the year. The only thing i look forward to besides exams is going home !! Goodness me i dyed my hair plus highlighted it as well just yesterday. It's LOUD !!
This week has been absolutely amazing, i managed to screen out everything and tune into work. Even amazing is tht i was able to desist all forms of contact from the world. And finally, the weekend !!! A well deserved break from countless hours of lecture tortures and tutorial abuses.
Am also trying so hard to get into shape for work when i do get home however it has seriously proved ill. I feel so fat and weak. Not to mention the laziness that creeps in occasionally when i am in the gym. It's just amazing how your mind have the power to control and to be controlled.
Oh ya.... i think my mum's gonna be down during my exams to add to the 'flavor'. Mixed feeling on that but hopefully everythings good. Can't wait to go home !!! Don't have to do my own laundry, clean my house nor drive a car. Relax !!
It's study, studying and studying to the max !!
Trying to recapture the frames that just zapped by this year. It's been a crazy/ fast year. End of the year. The only thing i look forward to besides exams is going home !! Goodness me i dyed my hair plus highlighted it as well just yesterday. It's LOUD !!
This week has been absolutely amazing, i managed to screen out everything and tune into work. Even amazing is tht i was able to desist all forms of contact from the world. And finally, the weekend !!! A well deserved break from countless hours of lecture tortures and tutorial abuses.
Am also trying so hard to get into shape for work when i do get home however it has seriously proved ill. I feel so fat and weak. Not to mention the laziness that creeps in occasionally when i am in the gym. It's just amazing how your mind have the power to control and to be controlled.
Oh ya.... i think my mum's gonna be down during my exams to add to the 'flavor'. Mixed feeling on that but hopefully everythings good. Can't wait to go home !!! Don't have to do my own laundry, clean my house nor drive a car. Relax !!
Friday, October 01, 2004
Reunion !!
Alright !! It's bout time i added some spice into my blog before it goes dry. I have somehow managed to survive through this 2 weeks of term holidays. And that is amazing. However, i realize that this entire 2 weeks i have basically been highly unproductive. Plus !!! I managed to screw up my eating habits, sleeping duties and studying obligations.
However, I do suppose this is a good break from my daily routine lifestyle. Well, where do I start ?? Let’s talk about CJ first, she manage to absolutely destroy my house within this period of 2 weeks and successfully forced me to lock her into her cage as a form of discipline. Won’t bother to elaborate because it’s just painful what she did to me and my house during ‘her’ holiday spirits. Hmm…
As for me, I basically spent most of my time catching up with friends and watching heaps and heaps of movies. Well, I also manage to whoop up a HUGE sum of shopping expenditure. And that’s only for clothes. One event that would be quite memorable was a kids church event called Fusion Olympics that absolutely drained every ounce of energy out of me !! But it was pretty GOOD. Full stop !!
Talk about working !! I am in a dilemma as to whether I should consider a job opportunity laid before me. This is rather frustrating and irritating as I am not capable of making a logical decision in consideration to pros and cons. BTW, this is not a modeling job. It’s more like a coffee shop worker (Australian style).
Today I manage to meet up with my old school friends and let me tell ya it’s GREAT !! Just the get together and not to mention a thorough bitching session ! Superb !! This weekend and the coming week it’s gonna be an absolute killer. More to come ….
However, I do suppose this is a good break from my daily routine lifestyle. Well, where do I start ?? Let’s talk about CJ first, she manage to absolutely destroy my house within this period of 2 weeks and successfully forced me to lock her into her cage as a form of discipline. Won’t bother to elaborate because it’s just painful what she did to me and my house during ‘her’ holiday spirits. Hmm…
As for me, I basically spent most of my time catching up with friends and watching heaps and heaps of movies. Well, I also manage to whoop up a HUGE sum of shopping expenditure. And that’s only for clothes. One event that would be quite memorable was a kids church event called Fusion Olympics that absolutely drained every ounce of energy out of me !! But it was pretty GOOD. Full stop !!
Talk about working !! I am in a dilemma as to whether I should consider a job opportunity laid before me. This is rather frustrating and irritating as I am not capable of making a logical decision in consideration to pros and cons. BTW, this is not a modeling job. It’s more like a coffee shop worker (Australian style).
Today I manage to meet up with my old school friends and let me tell ya it’s GREAT !! Just the get together and not to mention a thorough bitching session ! Superb !! This weekend and the coming week it’s gonna be an absolute killer. More to come ….
Monday, September 20, 2004
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Bitching Session !!!
No. 1
Superbly wonderfully annoyed and frustrated with a couple of people. Feel like killing a few people and burning Melbourne down. I hate it when people just 'dog' me for something else or just break my plans.
No.2
Screw it coz i can't go back home. Why !!!!!!!!!
No.3
What the hell am i gonna do with my life for this 2 weeks of absolute boring holidays ?? Suggestions ?? Probably just gonna work it off....
Consolation
On the bright side, at least me and my friends are planning upcoming programmes and activities. Today is extremely flattering.Well, it's because people are slowly starting to recognize me in the society. Went to a restaurant, and this waiter came up to me and this was how the conversation went :-
"Hey, aren't you the model from the fashion show ?"
After a second of comtemplation ...
"Mmmm... yea i think so."
Proceeded to sit down and have dinner with my friends.
Then after dinner and settling the bill. While i was about to leave, he came up to me again and thanked me and asked me for my name and of course being courteous i told him my name and he also introduced himself. Then funniest bit after that was he gave me a very big handshake and me and my friends after tht just left the restaurant and started laughing. I'm thinking to myself, haha... weird but well at least i am going somewhere with this modelling shit!!!
To be known and to be recognized, is that what i really want ?? Fame and people to know me ?? Well, tht's a question that i am still in the process of introspecting.But i am pretty darn sure it feels good. Coz just last week one of friends told me that someone wanted my autograph. To be very honest, i think i would enjoy it but after a while it would get in the way. To look back and say, " yes, been there and done it" so what ??
Sigh, probably tht's why i have this 2 weeks to really take time off to think bout my life and my goals in life. To refocus, reform,rebuilt, reset, realize.......
And if anyone has a thought or something just go ahead and leave it on the comment box...
Superbly wonderfully annoyed and frustrated with a couple of people. Feel like killing a few people and burning Melbourne down. I hate it when people just 'dog' me for something else or just break my plans.
No.2
Screw it coz i can't go back home. Why !!!!!!!!!
No.3
What the hell am i gonna do with my life for this 2 weeks of absolute boring holidays ?? Suggestions ?? Probably just gonna work it off....
Consolation
On the bright side, at least me and my friends are planning upcoming programmes and activities. Today is extremely flattering.Well, it's because people are slowly starting to recognize me in the society. Went to a restaurant, and this waiter came up to me and this was how the conversation went :-
"Hey, aren't you the model from the fashion show ?"
After a second of comtemplation ...
"Mmmm... yea i think so."
Proceeded to sit down and have dinner with my friends.
Then after dinner and settling the bill. While i was about to leave, he came up to me again and thanked me and asked me for my name and of course being courteous i told him my name and he also introduced himself. Then funniest bit after that was he gave me a very big handshake and me and my friends after tht just left the restaurant and started laughing. I'm thinking to myself, haha... weird but well at least i am going somewhere with this modelling shit!!!
To be known and to be recognized, is that what i really want ?? Fame and people to know me ?? Well, tht's a question that i am still in the process of introspecting.But i am pretty darn sure it feels good. Coz just last week one of friends told me that someone wanted my autograph. To be very honest, i think i would enjoy it but after a while it would get in the way. To look back and say, " yes, been there and done it" so what ??
Sigh, probably tht's why i have this 2 weeks to really take time off to think bout my life and my goals in life. To refocus, reform,rebuilt, reset, realize.......
And if anyone has a thought or something just go ahead and leave it on the comment box...
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
PHOTORIA !!!
Hey.... guys and girls. Newly editted and completed section.
PHOTORIA
Love every bit of it.
PHOTORIA
Love every bit of it.
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Menu...
It has been quite a while since i disappeared from blog. So to everyone there who visits my blog, sorry for the second of laziness.Partially because i lost a little bit of interest and other things are occupying my time. My current status is extremely tired from a long day. Am gonna keep it short and sweet coz i am really tired.
Here is this most recent dinner menu :-
Entree :-
Trying to co-exist with my uni friends and other friends has proved to be quite a hard task. Starting a fresh with some friends after taking a seriously long break dating back to winter holidays till bout 1 week ago. I realised that i have been quite caught up with my life and work that i have left out some of my friends. I still remember i needed to meet someone for dinner 2 weeks back and i'm still dragging it. This is becoming really bad cause i am losing contact with my friends and church mates. I realised these when this friend of mine which have been consistantly been calling me at the wrong time sent me an sms telling me off !! And for that i really thank her! I need to find time !! I realised that most people either don't want or don't dare to tell me off. However, for people who actually yell at me in return gains my respect eg. Mark.
Many things have happened since the last update. My life for this semester seems to have just taken shape and it's looking pretty relaxing and not as stressful i hope.
Main Course :-
I have just attended a fashion show, my first australian wedding, 21st parties. First, the wedding was indeed awesome but a long and tiring day. Still shocked and dazzled trying to sucumb to the truth that these two people who were part of my normal life tied the knot.
Now, for the fashion show, it was a good presentation and a fun relaxing time. But it's bad coz i ended up at home at 4am and not being able to wake up for church the next day. Both the males and females were pretty good looking. This was the fashion show which i was suppose to train the models but i had to turn down the offer. However, the directors and i have reached an agreement on future modelling prospects. YAY !!!There are pros and cons on attending fashion shows and meeting clients. That is you get to expand your contacts but you lose valuable time and sometimes indirectly forsake things that are also a major part in my life.Enough said cause i am tired.
Attended a party today whereby i sat there all by myself not knowing anyone when i entered the bar and left with a handful of new found friends. Pretty cool and fun time i guess. Haven't had the chance to do this kinda things in a while coz i hardly am able to find time especially with new friends.
Just joined a new modelling agency, i switch agents as though i'm drinking coffee.. don't ask me why. But with this new agency i am required not to work as much and i am able to explore more towards the commercial side rather than just modelling. That means the camera's will be rolling and i'll get to learn how to smile more rather than acting cool infront of the camera for fashion shoots. Conclusion, modelling life is glamourous but sometimes it just absolutely drains my life !!
Dessert:-
2 weeks from now i will be having casting and photoshoots as well. THIS REALLY SUCKS !! Why ?? Maybe because i need to spent the two weeks now trying to look good !! How?? Well, it's by losing 3-4 kg's in 2 weeks by exercising and absolutely trying to be a nutcase at watching your diet. Imagine walking pass an ice cream shop or maybe just BK smelling the aroma of hamburgers and fries filling your tummy but not being able to physically consume it. Trust me !! It's a serious test of motivation.
I went to the gym... it felt good to get back to regime but there's this bit of me which still laze around just wanting to relax and not work myself up. For all you know, i just found out i needed to dye my hair black or shave my head !! Good one !! Just freakin' spent quite a sum coloring my hair and now they want me to spend more colouring it back. Totally unreasonable and ridiculous. But i guess it's job requirements. So probs i should just stop bitching and get working. However, shaving my head is quite interesting, i'll probably look like a monk from China who got stuck in the wrong country !! We'll see how things go....
As for photos... they'll be coming pretty soon. Till then my fellow bitchy partners and scandalous mates. Need sleep
!! ZZZZZzzzzzz
Here is this most recent dinner menu :-
Entree :-
Trying to co-exist with my uni friends and other friends has proved to be quite a hard task. Starting a fresh with some friends after taking a seriously long break dating back to winter holidays till bout 1 week ago. I realised that i have been quite caught up with my life and work that i have left out some of my friends. I still remember i needed to meet someone for dinner 2 weeks back and i'm still dragging it. This is becoming really bad cause i am losing contact with my friends and church mates. I realised these when this friend of mine which have been consistantly been calling me at the wrong time sent me an sms telling me off !! And for that i really thank her! I need to find time !! I realised that most people either don't want or don't dare to tell me off. However, for people who actually yell at me in return gains my respect eg. Mark.
Many things have happened since the last update. My life for this semester seems to have just taken shape and it's looking pretty relaxing and not as stressful i hope.
Main Course :-
I have just attended a fashion show, my first australian wedding, 21st parties. First, the wedding was indeed awesome but a long and tiring day. Still shocked and dazzled trying to sucumb to the truth that these two people who were part of my normal life tied the knot.
Now, for the fashion show, it was a good presentation and a fun relaxing time. But it's bad coz i ended up at home at 4am and not being able to wake up for church the next day. Both the males and females were pretty good looking. This was the fashion show which i was suppose to train the models but i had to turn down the offer. However, the directors and i have reached an agreement on future modelling prospects. YAY !!!There are pros and cons on attending fashion shows and meeting clients. That is you get to expand your contacts but you lose valuable time and sometimes indirectly forsake things that are also a major part in my life.Enough said cause i am tired.
Attended a party today whereby i sat there all by myself not knowing anyone when i entered the bar and left with a handful of new found friends. Pretty cool and fun time i guess. Haven't had the chance to do this kinda things in a while coz i hardly am able to find time especially with new friends.
Just joined a new modelling agency, i switch agents as though i'm drinking coffee.. don't ask me why. But with this new agency i am required not to work as much and i am able to explore more towards the commercial side rather than just modelling. That means the camera's will be rolling and i'll get to learn how to smile more rather than acting cool infront of the camera for fashion shoots. Conclusion, modelling life is glamourous but sometimes it just absolutely drains my life !!
Dessert:-
2 weeks from now i will be having casting and photoshoots as well. THIS REALLY SUCKS !! Why ?? Maybe because i need to spent the two weeks now trying to look good !! How?? Well, it's by losing 3-4 kg's in 2 weeks by exercising and absolutely trying to be a nutcase at watching your diet. Imagine walking pass an ice cream shop or maybe just BK smelling the aroma of hamburgers and fries filling your tummy but not being able to physically consume it. Trust me !! It's a serious test of motivation.
I went to the gym... it felt good to get back to regime but there's this bit of me which still laze around just wanting to relax and not work myself up. For all you know, i just found out i needed to dye my hair black or shave my head !! Good one !! Just freakin' spent quite a sum coloring my hair and now they want me to spend more colouring it back. Totally unreasonable and ridiculous. But i guess it's job requirements. So probs i should just stop bitching and get working. However, shaving my head is quite interesting, i'll probably look like a monk from China who got stuck in the wrong country !! We'll see how things go....
As for photos... they'll be coming pretty soon. Till then my fellow bitchy partners and scandalous mates. Need sleep
!! ZZZZZzzzzzz
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Broke!!!
Now I understand the meaning of being broke. After enduring almost more than 1 week of being cashless and surviving merely on credit cards. I finally understand how people who have no money feel and suffer. I have to say, it is really not easy at all. The feeling of going out of the house with no money in your pocket and sitting there wondering how to obtain my next meal and how to buy stuff. Passing by shops whereby there are things that you want to buy but can’t afford it !! I now know that feeling !!
Let me begin the story. Bout 14 days ago, my bank account was frozen. WTF !!! Rushed into the bank and realized that my account was frozen due to the fact that someone had used my credit card and withdrawed an amount of $2500 AUD. Terrified and petrified I immediately had the credit card services to verify the validity of the transaction and it was establish that the transaction came from half-way round the world !! Great Brittan !!! Didn’t know I was ever in there!! This time even more terrified and petrified I had them cancel my card immediately. Filed a fraud report and had to report it to the police as well. SO much of paperwork and investigations. Best thing is I couldn’t take money out from fixed deposit in another bank and other bank accounts were running low!! In other words, I am officially BROKE !!
Great !!! Because of that incident they froze all funds in my account so that no further transactions could ensue. That was then I realize that I am officially a poor boy !!! Had to survive on people’s food remnants and search the garbage bins for food !!! HAHA.. just kidding. Well, I had to rely on daddy’s credit cards but I did not want to spent too much so I tried to save as much as possible. Only used it to buy groceries around $50 AUD through this entire event !! This incident just makes the word LONG-SUFFERING seem so true. So for that ….
Everyday I sit there thinking how to get money ?? NO !! I will not ask from my parents as I want to stand on my own feet !! I thought to myself, maybe I should sell some of my clothes cause they should worth quite a bit but it was not as simple as what I hoped for. Then, I turned to my agent to ask for my pay for the last job which the agency still owes me and they were not able to pay me till the end of the month !! DIE LA !! Why did I turn down that modeling job!! Why !! Could have earned at least 2 grand but why God put me in such a situation !! For this entire time I had to survive on supplies and groceries which I bought, tough life !!
The best is yet to come !! I checked my account on Friday which was around 10 days after the first incident… WOW !! Another 8 transactions which totaled up to $400 AUD !! With haste I immediately rushed into the bank and scolded as many people as I could find !! Actually only 2 person !! Irrational behaviour !! Regret it !! How could this have happened especially when I have cancelled the card and the account was frozen !! WTF !! SO much for that St. George bank !! I did inform my parents about it but this time I did not want them to send me any money because I want to handle this situation by myself. Superbly terrified and petrified !!
Finally, today !! The bank called me in to verify some details and finally agreed to refund the total fraud transaction amount back into my account !! Finally!! No more war with money issues!! My emotions !! HAPPY !! EXCITED !!
14 days !! That’s how long I endured and it was not fun !!If there’s anything I’ve learned is that so many people are actually in my situation with their bank accounts running almost low!! They have so much more worries than me for their entire life whereas mine is only temporary. How could I ever imagine being in their shoes where I am sheltered by my parents. So I have decided from now on I will only spend my money as wisely as I can!! Appreciate every single dollar and cents that I own !! Lesson learned…..
Let me begin the story. Bout 14 days ago, my bank account was frozen. WTF !!! Rushed into the bank and realized that my account was frozen due to the fact that someone had used my credit card and withdrawed an amount of $2500 AUD. Terrified and petrified I immediately had the credit card services to verify the validity of the transaction and it was establish that the transaction came from half-way round the world !! Great Brittan !!! Didn’t know I was ever in there!! This time even more terrified and petrified I had them cancel my card immediately. Filed a fraud report and had to report it to the police as well. SO much of paperwork and investigations. Best thing is I couldn’t take money out from fixed deposit in another bank and other bank accounts were running low!! In other words, I am officially BROKE !!
Great !!! Because of that incident they froze all funds in my account so that no further transactions could ensue. That was then I realize that I am officially a poor boy !!! Had to survive on people’s food remnants and search the garbage bins for food !!! HAHA.. just kidding. Well, I had to rely on daddy’s credit cards but I did not want to spent too much so I tried to save as much as possible. Only used it to buy groceries around $50 AUD through this entire event !! This incident just makes the word LONG-SUFFERING seem so true. So for that ….
Everyday I sit there thinking how to get money ?? NO !! I will not ask from my parents as I want to stand on my own feet !! I thought to myself, maybe I should sell some of my clothes cause they should worth quite a bit but it was not as simple as what I hoped for. Then, I turned to my agent to ask for my pay for the last job which the agency still owes me and they were not able to pay me till the end of the month !! DIE LA !! Why did I turn down that modeling job!! Why !! Could have earned at least 2 grand but why God put me in such a situation !! For this entire time I had to survive on supplies and groceries which I bought, tough life !!
The best is yet to come !! I checked my account on Friday which was around 10 days after the first incident… WOW !! Another 8 transactions which totaled up to $400 AUD !! With haste I immediately rushed into the bank and scolded as many people as I could find !! Actually only 2 person !! Irrational behaviour !! Regret it !! How could this have happened especially when I have cancelled the card and the account was frozen !! WTF !! SO much for that St. George bank !! I did inform my parents about it but this time I did not want them to send me any money because I want to handle this situation by myself. Superbly terrified and petrified !!
Finally, today !! The bank called me in to verify some details and finally agreed to refund the total fraud transaction amount back into my account !! Finally!! No more war with money issues!! My emotions !! HAPPY !! EXCITED !!
14 days !! That’s how long I endured and it was not fun !!If there’s anything I’ve learned is that so many people are actually in my situation with their bank accounts running almost low!! They have so much more worries than me for their entire life whereas mine is only temporary. How could I ever imagine being in their shoes where I am sheltered by my parents. So I have decided from now on I will only spend my money as wisely as I can!! Appreciate every single dollar and cents that I own !! Lesson learned…..
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Drenched !!
Today's a really long and dragy day !! Melbourne's weathers screwed up man. Few days of sunshine and one full day of rain. For a Saturday, it's been a long day. Went out at 10am and got back at 11.30pm to sleep. Basically, just went out to meet a client in the morning and then went hunting for a present. Today one of my friend's graduating, so i took the liberty of buying a 1 metre chocolate bar with assorted chocolates for him. It's really cool.
Freakin' went out dry and comfortable and came back home in the afternoon drenched. Never ever liked Melbourne's weather anyway. Had to come home and change because all my clothes were wet and I looked like an idiot. Got changed into a classic black suit because i really didn't want to dress up for the occasion. Now it was the suits turn to get soaked. Freak !!!!!! The ceremony was wonderfully amazingly BORING!! Man, don’t think I’m gonna rock up for my graduation !! Get drained so badly it just aint funny anymore.
The best part bout being an international student is you have the opportunity to get ripped off by the Australian government. Freakin’ pay like AUD $100,000 for a piece of paper Signed, Sealed Delivered by an old “wise” lady a.k.a. Chancellor. Hmm… i would say good investment daddy. Well done !! Well, will be at least 2 years before I’m rocking up that road I guess. However, however… the best is yet to come. The after Grad refreshment. The foods pretty good. At least good enough to make my “Daddy’s investment” feel better.
However, thinking bout it.. how often do we actually put what we have learned into application ?? Most of the time we just learn it and pretty much forget it after the exams. But i guess it's the process of learning that we learn and experience. Not so much on the facts and text books. More to come.
After tht, basically it was just going out with friends playing games and trying to have “intellectual” conversations. Tired now….
ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………..
Oh... almost forgot, i wanna direct everyone who is reading this blog to the previous posting. Especially the comments bit. I hope you al will take time to read it.
Freakin' went out dry and comfortable and came back home in the afternoon drenched. Never ever liked Melbourne's weather anyway. Had to come home and change because all my clothes were wet and I looked like an idiot. Got changed into a classic black suit because i really didn't want to dress up for the occasion. Now it was the suits turn to get soaked. Freak !!!!!! The ceremony was wonderfully amazingly BORING!! Man, don’t think I’m gonna rock up for my graduation !! Get drained so badly it just aint funny anymore.
The best part bout being an international student is you have the opportunity to get ripped off by the Australian government. Freakin’ pay like AUD $100,000 for a piece of paper Signed, Sealed Delivered by an old “wise” lady a.k.a. Chancellor. Hmm… i would say good investment daddy. Well done !! Well, will be at least 2 years before I’m rocking up that road I guess. However, however… the best is yet to come. The after Grad refreshment. The foods pretty good. At least good enough to make my “Daddy’s investment” feel better.
However, thinking bout it.. how often do we actually put what we have learned into application ?? Most of the time we just learn it and pretty much forget it after the exams. But i guess it's the process of learning that we learn and experience. Not so much on the facts and text books. More to come.
After tht, basically it was just going out with friends playing games and trying to have “intellectual” conversations. Tired now….
ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………..
Oh... almost forgot, i wanna direct everyone who is reading this blog to the previous posting. Especially the comments bit. I hope you al will take time to read it.
Monday, August 09, 2004
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Last day !!
Third day coverage !! Let me see, everyone's pretty much banged out !! Tired !! Acumulation and built up of alcohol. But we still had a last burst of energy to overpower the Buck into the river !! And it's back home to everyday life !!! Good worth of 3 days fun !! Unforgettable experience..... Definitely!
Monday, August 02, 2004
What have i done !!!!!!!!!!!
Ok..today i made quite a big decision that would be quite impactful towards my modelling career. I decided to turn down the offer for 2004 Shanghai Fashion Week.
Thank God for really speaking. Today Chris was just giving a short testimonial during service and it really did identify with what i felt. Whether to accept or to decline the job offer. This was really one BIG oppurcunity. It's one of the few rather big fashion events. Howver, i realised that nothing can be more important than my friends.
I don't think i will be able to live with the fact that i don't attend my friend's bachelor part and marriage. So, i decided to let it go. It's not about the money, the fame or the experience. I think what matters most in life is dealing with your heart. And i am glad i made the right decision !! What could really matter more than our relationships and friendships where our lives are built on !! Good work JC !! =)
Ooo... my cousin's coming !!! Really excited to meet her, she'll be here by Thursday !! So, looks like it will be one hell of a week !!
So,better start gearing up !! All set for this weekend !!!
Thank God !!
Thank God for really speaking. Today Chris was just giving a short testimonial during service and it really did identify with what i felt. Whether to accept or to decline the job offer. This was really one BIG oppurcunity. It's one of the few rather big fashion events. Howver, i realised that nothing can be more important than my friends.
I don't think i will be able to live with the fact that i don't attend my friend's bachelor part and marriage. So, i decided to let it go. It's not about the money, the fame or the experience. I think what matters most in life is dealing with your heart. And i am glad i made the right decision !! What could really matter more than our relationships and friendships where our lives are built on !! Good work JC !! =)
Ooo... my cousin's coming !!! Really excited to meet her, she'll be here by Thursday !! So, looks like it will be one hell of a week !!
So,better start gearing up !! All set for this weekend !!!
Thank God !!
Sunday, August 01, 2004
Saturday, July 31, 2004
2004 Shanghai Fashion Week!!!!
Yay !! Finally, fashion week. Anyway, this events really really cool. Didn't want to participate in it because i don't really have much time and plus i went back to Malaysia during the break. But will be helping out, still in negotiations with the company director as to my role as being a model trainer or something else. Might have to go to China, not sure yet !! Excitement !!
Anyway, this time can't get any free tickets. It's on the 28th of August in Sofitel Hotel. Tickets are available and start from AUD 48 - 68. Only 300 tickets available. SO anyone interested let me know.
Well, more updatez on this when things get a little closer. Don't wanna spill too much !!!
Anyway, this time can't get any free tickets. It's on the 28th of August in Sofitel Hotel. Tickets are available and start from AUD 48 - 68. Only 300 tickets available. SO anyone interested let me know.
Well, more updatez on this when things get a little closer. Don't wanna spill too much !!!
Friday, July 30, 2004
JAP !!!
Okiez... i have to admit. I have got this thing for Japs. Jap cars, jap names, movies... everything.
Gosh, i have watched the last samurai like freakin 10 times and yet i'm still going on strong. What's wrong wif me !!!! Hmm.. besides the fact that Jap chicks are preetty hot. Every Jap chick seems to have dyed hair !! Wow, honkie chicks with a good tan and skinny.. good height as well. Super duper hot.....
Wow... didn't know asian female models could be so freakin good lookin'. However, a little too old. = P. Well well, drool drool. Tan, i need my daily source of tan. Freakin winter, not only superbly depressing but i freakin' look like a fresh slaugthered chicken with it's feathers removed.
Dreading everyday in Melb, dying by the minute.
Gosh, i have watched the last samurai like freakin 10 times and yet i'm still going on strong. What's wrong wif me !!!! Hmm.. besides the fact that Jap chicks are preetty hot. Every Jap chick seems to have dyed hair !! Wow, honkie chicks with a good tan and skinny.. good height as well. Super duper hot.....
Wow... didn't know asian female models could be so freakin good lookin'. However, a little too old. = P. Well well, drool drool. Tan, i need my daily source of tan. Freakin winter, not only superbly depressing but i freakin' look like a fresh slaugthered chicken with it's feathers removed.
Dreading everyday in Melb, dying by the minute.
Me againz !!
Hmm... today CJ got a bath. Once every week. And i bought her a new jumper again. This time blue in color. So , therefore you will seeing quite a row of new photos of me and CJ. She smells good... thank God for creating dog shampoo....
MMM.... nothing else to add.
MMM.... nothing else to add.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Ear Rings !!!
I am so freakin' tempted to put a diamond earring on me left year. ALmost ... almost did it but i just had to think bout it again. Really gonna do it soon.. However, dun think will be approved by loads of people. Eg. parents, relatives, even some friends.....
Hmm... Wanna dye my hair as well....
THt will be interesting.. the whole complete look......
CIaoz
Hmm... Wanna dye my hair as well....
THt will be interesting.. the whole complete look......
CIaoz
Hmm....
I realize one thing .....
There's more to life than to be really really ridiculously good lookin'.... hahaha....
quote & unquote " Zoolander"......
There's more to life than to be really really ridiculously good lookin'.... hahaha....
quote & unquote " Zoolander"......
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Interesting!!
I woke up at 6.54am today!!!! Superbly undeniably impressive. THanks to sleepin' early. So i guess i'll have quite a long day ahead.
Commenting!!
OK... i have adjusted the settings so that anyone can comment on anything you see. Don't mind any comments just as long as it's in english and i can freakin understand it. So... comment your way...
Monday, July 26, 2004
Notice!!
Well, i notice one thing... In all my photos i don't smile at all. Really haven't got a clue as to why i don't smile in ront of the camera. Maybe it's a model thing. Or trying to keep it cool. No idea !! Well, well ,well ... It is a good thing that since i got back my hactic lifestyle have not started yet. Just enjoy my relaxation. Haven't been replying many calls as well. Sorry, if you're one of them and you are reading this, it's not that i am avoiding you or anything. Don't take it personally. Ohh... there are also a photos of CJ just a while back.
Church was pretty crazy today. The kids were mad !! If i had my way... i would handcuff all of them to their chair. Save me my troubles and energy. Went out for lunch with friends have church !! Amazing !! coz the last time i could recall was probably bout 4-5 months back. Wei Syn and Di's wedding's coming up. Pretty interesting and i guess maybe something to look forward to besides daily routine of work and work and more work.
Well, since i got back i decided to implement the new look !No more Honkee wannabe ! Would like to call it the smart intelectual look. For those who've seen it. You know ... but for those who are yet to witness. Here's the preview... a nice bright colourned collared top (pink/bright green/light blue .....) with wool semi-casual pants (grey or white as seen in the previous photo ) with a new hair style topped up with a pair of silver bright glasses. Can be witnessed in the previous few photos. Thank God... hopefully i won't get bored of it too soon.
Since i got back i am yet to on the TV. Have not touched it yet. Basically everything's the same. Heard tht my agency is planning a fashion show in the snow !! WTH ??!! Clueless.. all i know is i will be meeting him sometime this week for reviews. Tht's all for now.
Church was pretty crazy today. The kids were mad !! If i had my way... i would handcuff all of them to their chair. Save me my troubles and energy. Went out for lunch with friends have church !! Amazing !! coz the last time i could recall was probably bout 4-5 months back. Wei Syn and Di's wedding's coming up. Pretty interesting and i guess maybe something to look forward to besides daily routine of work and work and more work.
Well, since i got back i decided to implement the new look !No more Honkee wannabe ! Would like to call it the smart intelectual look. For those who've seen it. You know ... but for those who are yet to witness. Here's the preview... a nice bright colourned collared top (pink/bright green/light blue .....) with wool semi-casual pants (grey or white as seen in the previous photo ) with a new hair style topped up with a pair of silver bright glasses. Can be witnessed in the previous few photos. Thank God... hopefully i won't get bored of it too soon.
Since i got back i am yet to on the TV. Have not touched it yet. Basically everything's the same. Heard tht my agency is planning a fashion show in the snow !! WTH ??!! Clueless.. all i know is i will be meeting him sometime this week for reviews. Tht's all for now.
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