sigh

Another sigh entry...

Today i feel so devastated le...
Didn't feel like talking at all ...
I'm suddenly sucked into another phobia ...
Fear of arguments again...

I'm so afraid to even talk again le. I feel so much happier being all by myself and not saying anything. Don't wanna be hurt anymore le. I feel like i'm the cause of troubles. Suddenly i feel so distant and weird being at home. I'm so worried also that my friend would be angry with me cause i did not stood by him.

Feel so trapped in a dilemma. All i can do is stay silent. I feel like shit le. WEnt out wondering aimlessly in the shopping mall just to escape. Have i really developed a phobia ? I really hate arguments ... Also hate being trapped in between 2 parties ending up feeling so so bad. I just so hope this phase would pass by quickly. Please don't argue with me anymore ya. I'll really break down soon.

I just want to be happy again. Sigh ...